I have tinnitus and I cry

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I am over 40 years old and developed tinnitus in August 2018 after a cold infection. I am rarely exposed to loud sounds and don't go to concerts and clubs. My hearing was not affected and I just woke up in the middle of the night with ringing in both of my ears. A visit to the GP confirmed my ears were inflamed which was promptly treated but the ringing persisted. Over time (about a week), the ringing in the right ear disappeared. I am now stuck with a howl or hiss in the left ear. My wife does not understand, my  children are concerned (So I now hide it from then). I cry in secret most times. I am afraid of nights and early mornings and try to live each day one at a time and pray everyday about it. I use the tv or you tube and sound masking apps to sleep. I am worried that this will be with me forever. Sometimes, I feel death is the only release but I am a Christian and have a lovely family, so I won't kill myself. My Dad had it about 20 years ago but it went way after a year. He tells me it will go away with time. I am fearful and sad and cry because of tinnitus. It has affected my work, my appetite, my focus and contributed to a short bout of depression. Apologies for the rambling but I woke with a howl this morning and started crying.

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    Hi Eric.  Several questions:

    1.  what meds are you taking?

    2.  have you been seen by an ENT doctor?  If so, what meds did they put you on?

    3.  Are you taking a sedative such as Ativan?

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    Hello Eric - I can relate to everything you are saying. 

    I have suffered with miserable tinnitus for over 30 years. The constant hissing is relentless and I strugglt to not let it define who I am. I also suffer from some hearing loss along with Meniere's and hyperacusis. I have always evaluated my life as being more significant than the issue of tinnitus. I try to live every day hoping and praying that maybe the next day, the hissing won't be as intense and I'll get a break from the madness, no matter how short. 

    I'm hoping your tinntius goes away like your Dad's and you won't have to deal with it. People that do not have tinnitus have no clue what we are going through. It's difficult for them to imagine what we are hearing, the hissing, or the dentist drill or the roaring hum. 

    Please don't let this tinnitus define who you are and how valuable you are to others. For the time being, use distraction methods of music and youtube like you're doing. Don't use excessive salt and stay away from alcohol and loud sounds. Even some meds can increase the intensity of your tinnitus and after a while you will know what the instigators are to your tinnitus sensitivity. Maybe you can talk to your doctor about a mild tranqulizer to help you get to sleep and stay asleep.

    In view that you are fairly new to all of this, hopefully it's going to just exit. I'm hoping for you. It's just so miserable and don't be afraid to let your family know what you're dealing with. 

    I wish you the best and please keep us posted. 

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      Thanks for your kind response and encouraging words. My partner does not understand what it is to have this sound and thinks I am over-reacting and wants me to snap out of it. Hence, I do not talk about it any more with her. I did talk to some one yesterday and I feel a lot better today. I now use a masking sound from mynoise website to sleep. I have also being prescribed some sleeping tablets to help with sleeping. I will take it a day at time and accept this as my new normal. Perhaps, it may go away one day, perhaps it may not. I have resolved to try and not be obsessed by it.
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    Hello Eric. I'd like to know how old you really are. The first thing you should do is to go to see a doctor. However I myself have been suffering this desease for many years and recently I have been doing a therapy that have helped me to reduce the noise in a very important way. If you want to contact me may be I could help you.... Don't do anything you can regret. Bye.

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      Hi Rodolfo,

      I've had tinnitus for almost three years now. I'm interested in knowing what it is that you are doing that's helped you reduce the noise. I went to your profile but found no way to send you a private message. If it's possible and I just don't know how, can you contact me or send me message? 

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      dymaz ...Contact me a through Instagram Contreras9895 and I'll be glad to see if my experience can help other people

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      Sorry dear ,

      Y doc can't find medicine. Even they didn't confirmed it belongs to ENT , brain specialist , neuro. We are in 2018.. From 1865 they were finding the medicines. Then what decision should be taken . how to survive with bloody sucking sound. Can't able to work. Like

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      how utterly amazing this response is. Death over some annoying noise in your ears? I've lived with it for over 30 years. I'm happy to be alive and a lot better off than a lot of people with other (more) significant issues than tinnitus. To tell someone death is the only remedy, is irresponsible, weak and destructive.

      You should offer encouragment as opposed to discouragement. How sad.

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      Dear

      What my heart told is posted. I know its ugly sorry for that but can't able to live with it. Commited one time suicide but in home saved me. Now m useless now

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      Sorry mate, when there is life, there is hope. Death is not the way out. I understand that one may feel that way sometimes, but I believe it is better to get rid of such thoughts and not allow them to take hold in ones subconscious mind.
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      Have you sought counseling or have a good friend to chat with.  Cantering thoughts on how we always feel keeps us in the same rut.  I have found with tinnitus you need distractions.  Not just noise around you but a purpose and focus that keeps me from dwelling on myself.  Volunteer work with those less fortunate or dealing with far more serious health issues is a great way to do some good and stop focusing on myself.  But if you are at a very low place in your life please seek counselling.
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