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I write this shaking, knowing what I am about to say is me admitting that im not coping with some aspects of my life.
It all started in childhood, I was abused 3 times by different people aswell as bullied in school and also abused mentally and sometimes physically by my own farther.
Im now 29 and use drink and sometimes drugs to blank everything away, the good thing I do have is my partner, mother, friends and an amazing little dog! All of this I could lose if i do not make a change in my life today.
I have tried councling but that just didnt work for me, I have a strong mind a massive heart but for some reason I can not change this aspect of my life and dont know what to do, I just feel liike running away from everything and everyone and starting a whole new life again alone but thats just me running away from my problems instead of facing up to the fact that I have everything I want and need!
I am 29 and have a fantastic job, this job unfortunatley comes with the party, drink, drugs and high pressure environment. Can I really just stop and change everything now.
I go out, black out forget everything, I am horrible to my partner and friends and myself, its not the realy me and I think thats why so many stand by be as I love people so much and always try and help people with there difficulties in life and I help them to become a better person but dont seem to help myself!
I need this to be the first step of a change of mylife as drinking has become a part of who i am now but i know im ready to change and and just need to know how!
Has anyone else got any tips, advice and ideas and also how can i mend people that I have hurt recently.
Phew, im glad I have wrote this but im scared about the journey ahead!
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