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I can't seem to get my finger out and just be a big girl and do something with my life. I find it difficult working, having a boyfriend and seeing friends and doing things I just want to stay hope and curl up in bed with a lifetime of food. I can't cope with work I get up at half 5 every morning and get about 2-3 hours sleep a night due to anxiety and worrying and doctors just turn a blind eye because thats what they are best at doing. My boyfriend knows and wonders why I don't talk to him about it but it's because I don't want to bother or annoy people when they have their own problems. I am very insacure I hate going out without make up now as before I wouldn't really care. I know men and woman look at me and think Im horrible looking I know I need some parts of my face fixed but it sucks I should have to feel like this I'm 23 this year I should be out enjoying my life and exploring the world but I don't want too I just want to sleep and eat if I can't cope just now how can I cope in the future. I don't take any medication and I don't get counciling it's getting to a point I want to take the medication but I am so scared I will be overweight again I dont even take the Pill or have the implant as I know I will put it all back on. Not sure what I can do because I have never really had proper help. Telling me to smile more or do something or be happy just doesnt fix it I'm afraid I wish it was easy as that.
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