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I just feel like I’m starting to lose hope I feel like my days are just repeating and repeating. I find myself obsessively checking myself in the mirror many times a day and will often leave lesson just to go look in the mirror. Usually when I’m out with friend it isn’t as bad but when I’m at home it’s usually a lot worse. People always say I’m attractive but I just don’t see it , I just stare into the mirror and wish my face was different and that I was a normal person. Everything about my face I want to change and I find myself research plastic surgery everyday in hopes that it will make me happy. On my days off Collage and work I usually just stay in bed listening to the same songs on repeat sometimes even the same lyrics , same YouTube videos and checking the mirror. I’m becoming more and more distant from friend and finding it hard to keep any kind of relationship up, I feel like none of my friend would understand what I’m going through . I have anxiety that all my friends are speaking about me behind my back or dislike me . I don’t even know who I am anymore I feel like I’m losing the real me. I used to love watching films and tv going for runs walks and going to party’s but every-time I go out I feel like it just gets to much for me . I also suffer from really bad nightmares most nights and sometimes just find myself staying awake listing to the same song just to keep myself awake.
I know there’s something wrong but I just can’t seem the break the cycle I think I need help.
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