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I hate it. The minute I reached 12 months without a period my body betrayed me. It happened so fast I couldn't believe it. My entire body just suddenly sagged. Jowls became prominent, skin hanging every where. Top to bottom my skin is falling down. I look like I melted. Hot flashes, dripping wet to freezing cold. Rashes under my breasts. My vagina , which was just fine... now dry and painful , even when i'm properly excited. Lubricants only help so much. Exhausted all the time, no excercise , weak, stressed... lost all filters on my emotions making my days at work so hard to get through. i go from calm to enraged to suicidal in less than 60 seconds and sometimes have trouble controlling it. i never want to do anything but sleep or sit in a chair. I'm old, fat and ugly and somehow I'm supposed to get in the mood. I don't understand why the universe would do this to us. If we've become useless at a certain age, why take away everything that makes us a woman in the worst way possible. I relate to the poster who said she felt like she was slowly dying... I feel like I'm the walking dead already. Walking around rotting and I wish it would end. Wish I would end, I can't fix this and my husband deserves better.
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