I just want to give up on life

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Today I just want to die. The nerve pain is awful , and Me passing it to my bf is killing me. I didn't know I had it , and gave it to him. I'm hurt and just want to give up on life. Most people say "herpes isn't a big deal" maybe not for you , but I wake up with a swollen leg , foot swollen, barley can move my arms at times, shooting pain through out . Yes I take vitamins , and have taken meds for the nerve pain. It's a temporary fix and come right back. I can't live like this for my whole life. Does it get better ?!??!! .right now I have pain in my butt area. I haven't even brought up the hepers conversation to him bc I'm scared. His family love me, he loves me . My family loves him. He's very athletic, plays football, but haven't due to lower back pain and swollen in foot and leg. I NEVER cheated on him, so why did it show up so late ? I'm sure how long I had it. I been with him two years and it's showing up now. The first thing he's going to think is that I cheated. I rather kill myself vs knowing that I hurt someone that loved me so much. He never had a great relationship and he tells me everyday , he loves me and this is the best relationship he ever had , i ruined someone life and someone ruined mine.. sorry I'm just hurting and crying really bad. And I can only vent on here . I just want to die.

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  • Posted

    I really don't know what to say Hun. I get frustrated when people say having herpes isn't a big deal, seems those who say it are the ones who don't have it.

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      Iam so sorry you are feeling this way. I was diagnosed about a month ago and felt like my life was completely over. Iam still not where i want to be but iam not as bad as in the beginning. Difficult roads often leads to beautiful destinations. I know its tough iam there with u and sometimes the pain is unbearable but we can not let this beat us we will be ok. God loves you pray it will get better
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    Oh my goodness, it can alway's be so much worse. I had  relations with a guy for a year,thought he was so great. One night I came down with a fever,  and could hardly move. I left work,and crawled on my hands and knee's up my stairs, thought I was dying. The next morning I really couldn't walk. I had a vagina full of sores,and they hurt like hell. I did not have a clue what this was. I went to my doc,and she said I have herpes(WHAT) I could not believe this. I went to him and said, you gave me herpes,and he said no big deal,my whole family has it.(WHAT). I did see a cold sore on his mom's lip one time.(big deal) Well I never had another breakout,so I thought well a one time thing(,RIGHT). I got married,and moving  forward,had a child, nothing. Well 25 years later I started getting herpes sores, one right after the other. I simply told my husband,a guy I was with 27 years ago,gave me herpes. I have been married for 24 years. It can lie dormant for years. I have been getting breakouts for a year now,and I am now 57. My doc gave me valtrex to take daily, or when I feel a breakout coming on. The only thing I do different about sex is if I have a breakout, I wait till it's gone before doing it. But if you take a daily med then you probably won't get any. Yes, they hurt like hell,and I still hate the fact that he knew and didn't tell me. CREEP! No sense in crying over spilt milk. What's done is done,and you better get a grip and deal. You are lucky that you have someone who loves you. You didn't do it on purpose. Stop getting yourself all worked up, and move forward. This is what we have to do. After the shock wears off, you will be fine. xxo sweetie, your fine. PS what do you mean by nerve pain,and your leg and foot. 

    • Posted

      I'm so glad you responded to my message .. hepers can cause shocking nerve pain. In the buttocks and legs . It Hurts so bad.. was you diagnosis with hsv 1 or 2? Does your husband have it ? Thank Kimberly for write me

  • Posted

    Sorry to hear you're having a rough time. rolleyes You should see a doctor about the limb swelling and arm pain, as that honestly doesn't sound related to herpes. All the best.

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