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I know I’m straight but starting to doubt myself.

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anonymous_123
anonymous_123

Hi, I am a 14 y/o girl who has always had crushes on boys. I remember having my first crush in kindergarten. Last year I was literally obsessed with like 2 guys. But for some reason, something happened and now I’m scared. I started to get the thought “am I gay” and it just stuck. Soon after more thoughts came like “are u sure ur straight” and “how do u know ur straight”. Then I started to get thoughts like “what if u want to date a girl in the future”. I am just really scared because I don’t feel like myself. I feel very strongly that I am not gay because I literally don’t even feel attracted to girls. There are like no girls that I feel attracted to the same way as guys. I have always wanted to be with a guy, but these thoughts are ruining it. Now I don’t feel as attracted to guys as I used to and I worried that these thoughts are “growing on me”. I even scared to have a boyfriend (I have anxiety). I randomly get thoughts just like kissing a girl and they freak me out. I am really scared and I just want the thoughts to stop. I really need help and I have no one to. Another add on: I have always felt more comfortable around girls but not in a sexual way or anything like that, just for some reason it is easier for me to talk to girl. My main fear is that one day I will have a husband but I won’t love him and then realize I am gay and that scares me so much. I am just really scared and no matter how much I reassure myself, it never works.

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  • anonymous_123
    anonymous_123

    Posted

    I am going to add that I’m pretty sure I have HOCD
  • anonymous_123
    anonymous_123

    Posted

    Another add on: I am starting to look back into my childhood and I never really did anything, I was just a weird kid like literally
  • anonymous_123
    anonymous_123

    Posted

    Sry another add on: I have a question about the not feeling so attracted to guys anymore. Is it just because I am so young or is it because of the HOCD? Sry this is literally my last add on 
  • gillian60701
    gillian60701 anonymous_123

    Posted

    I have crush on home and away actress. My friend too. We all girls. Normal to get them especially early to middle teens phases. Don't be scared okay..actually normal phases. Let its run its course. You grow up soon will know and more sure of your feelings. Just know this teen time is a expected confusing extra sensitive phases we all went through with peer pressure too!

    • gillian60701
      gillian60701 anonymous_123

      Posted

      since you asked yes. You are in control of yourself ..what it be at end..either way society laws do not frown or condemn. Don't allow yourself feel condemned if you this or that. That very important to understand. Try not take too seriously okay. Have fun in things and know it normal of your age.

  • borderriever
    borderriever anonymous_123

    Posted

    Hello

     

    You are still very young and no-one here can say what you are or what you are going to be. It sounds like you are beginning to like boys.

    Do not feel pressured at this time of life, also do not question what you are, you sound fine

    BOB

  • anonymous_123
    anonymous_123

    Posted

    Thank you everyone! You have helped me out a lot. I am starting to calm down and starting to feel like myself already. I’m not sure if I’m just having one of my good days but thank you!
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