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Hi people, this feeling is ruining my life.. I have kind of obsession that I need to feel guilty because I was searching some weird or stupid stuff on web when I was curious or bored. I feel that everyone around me knows exacly everythi g what I was looking or searching and that they hate me because of it. The thing is i dont remember my every search of course but what i remember there wasnt anything too bad. But my mind tells me i dont remember something i would feel guilty about... When someone hurt me i feel like they know the truth that i dont know. I sometimes feel very guilty and paranoid and cut myself or take a lot pills at once to punish myself. I wouldnt find anyone that truly love me no matter what i did... Because i did... My mind tells me i did something wrong i shodnt be able to live with it. When i find out what is it i will go crazy. Im livi g with this for a year and it only gets worse. Im never relaxed or enjoying life. Always need to prove im not hurting anyone. I cry every single day and sometimes im very suicidal. Im losing myself. Please help! Is this obsession or what? How can i stop feeling that guilty and live life?
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