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I have become so consumed with checking myself everyday. I am obsessed with lymph nodes. I feel them everyday, I even made the ones in my neck swell because I thought they were swollen when they were actually normal size and it caused my neck to swell too. I get benign tremors, I am always irritable, and I'm in fear for my life everyday. I've thought that I've had HIV/AIDS even when I was a virgin, and am now currently obsessed with Lymphoma/Leukemia/Sarcoma. I found a lump in my groin and I am so scared. I feel like it's because I have a lot of hair, wear breifs, & I sweat down there so I try to believe it could be a sabaceous cyst however my mind keeps telling me it's something chronic. I recently went to the Dr. and my lymph nodes were normal and he said I was fine, but now I'm scared to go have this examined because I know that's where my life will change forever. I avoid talking about cancer and in class if we talk about cancer I take it as a sign that I might have it or I just tune people out. I always think the worst in situation such as if I am out woth friends I'll say to myself "This is probably going to be the last time going out before I have to go to the Hospital." I was excited for Collge but now I am not because I think I won't make it because of the illnesses I think I have. This affects my everyday life and I'm only 17 years old. Please read this and take this into consideration and give me your honest opinions, thank you so much.
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