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sam18386
sam18386

Hi, I hope everyone else is ok. I'm eventually back - dead phone, dead internet, kidney infection really ill health. It's been a few weeks but all so different now. After waiting over 2 years my ivf may be cancelled. After all we've been through I'm devastated - all because my stupid doctors didn't spot or treat kidney problem sooner. There mustn't be a God. I do everything everyone else asks for this. I'm just despondent, people who know me on here know what I went through to get to this stage. A week before ivf, after been assaulted and losing my dad etc. I sometimes wonder if life is a sick joke, well I don't see the joke all I see is heartache. I'm sorry for those people who have really serious problems but this is mine today. I feel like jumping, then I'll be with my dad and won't have to face any more misery. That's all.

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  • Misssy2
    Misssy2 sam18386

    Posted

    Wow...that is a terrible feeling I got reading your post.

    Helpless...don't know how to help you....wish you weren't dealt this deck of cards....Life is so short....What is IVF?  I'm assuming it is some benefit?

    You say it MAY be cancelled....I also am worrying about funds being cancelled and it is a devestating feeling....What happened to your kidneys?  Are you on dyalisis?  I knew someone on dyalisis...its ok...it works....But I DONT know your full story...so I'm sorry I can't be of more help...Just didn't want you hanging out with no answers alone.

    • sam18386
      sam18386 Misssy2

      Posted

      Hi Missy2, no IVF is no a benefit but it can cause a benefit - I am 42 and have been trying for a baby with my husband for over 2 years. IVF may give us the only chance to have tiny feet, toes, noses and torsos to join my husband and I and our cat. If IVF works I'll have children. What's saddened me is they've only sent for a kidney scan now. I've had virtually non stop antibiotics due to urinary infections that can be known to affect the kidneys anyway, doctors want this now why not earlier? Grrr I've waited soooo long! Now you understand? Sorry for those who have serious problems on here but I've come from being raped aged 19 to this. I'm trying to fight back but what's the point?
    • Misssy2
      Misssy2 sam18386

      Posted

      sam..this is a "serious" problem for YOU..and I see it as a serious stressor for you as well.  That's right I think you told me what IVF was before....I forgot...I'm having brain issues myself...memory issues.

      You do not know yet...if your kidneys are affected....you would know..you would have had other issues...they are just following protocols to have on file that they actually did LOOK at your kidneys prior to your procedure.  They have rules to follow....and I wonder did you ask them why they are doing it now? Maybe they have to do it CLOSE to the time of the procedure.

      Breathe....and just keep following the steps of their procedure....and take one day at a time...and keep posting....so you don't stay stressed out.  Every problem we have...matters..thats what these boards are for.

    • sam18386
      sam18386 Misssy2

      Posted

      This website has some of the most understanding people. I'll try to relax but life keeps getting in the way!
    • Misssy2
      Misssy2 sam18386

      Posted

      This website is pretty cool...too bad it lags all the time on me and gets me so frustrated sometimes I get a headache.

      You will be ok...here is to having a happy, healthy...baby...just keep following the process

    • sam18386
      sam18386 Misssy2

      Posted

      Thankyou Missy2, good luck on your road to recovery too!
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