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Hi! I'm new to the site. I know discussions on here are about health and not relationships but my situation is linked to my depression. I have been depressed for about a year now and it has come to the stage where I have been shutting out my friends and i'm beginning to shut out my family too. The reason for me doing this is because I don't want them to judge me or make me feel guilty etc for the way I am feeling (I know this wouldn't be intentional on their part.) I also don't want them to worry about me, be concerned about me or talk about me to eachother as this would add to my stress. They really can't do anything to help so i'd rather not discuss it with them. My boyfriend is the only person who I want to be around and I know that's not healthy. He has been my rock and he understands that i'm depressed but because he is my 'safety blanket' I am relying on him too much for support and i'm scared that i'm pushing him away. I don't want to be a burden to him but I feel like he is the only person I can cope with being around. I can feel myself becoming quite obsessive though- calling him far too much and wanting to see him all the time. I need to try and control my need in feeling i have to talk to him etc but it's very hard as he makes me feel slighty better and more at ease. I need to try and change my behaviour though before I lose him because of it. I feel that I am putting too much pressure on him. I know I should see more of my family and friends but right now I don't feel in the right space to. Has anyone been through a similar experience? Or have any advice please? Thanks
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