I'm having Bi-polar Like Symptoms.
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So, Since November 2016, I experienced sudden and Unexpected bout of Anxiety and Depression that have made life since then Hell, i had and (Have) issues with a friendship that had been on the rocks and finally exploded (Metaphorically), I also during Xmas Lost a family member, Whom I was - int 100% close to, but close enough to feel the loss, and since then have been sinking deeper, August 2017... I experienced an emotional breakdown finally from those months of tension. However, Unusually over the past 4? Days (So far) I have been feeling unusually Hyped, And Like I need to be doing something like or else I will be so unbelievably bored, I have so much anger which is not really outward, Jealousy and Envy. I have always sort of had since 2016, A Manic like personality, Yet being 100% Depressed and Lost. I always feel empty too, and clouded mind with no purpose to live. I sometimes wonder to myself are my feelings real? Or am I acting this way without realising, I sort of wan't to get better but of other times I like the thought of having this illness, (Strange I know) My Mother has a Thyroid condition which might be related Maybe (?) and Has been unstable throughout my childhood, Alcohol etc... I just feel so unreal, It's slowly killing me... I Believed it was Borderline Personality Disorder but now I'm feeling this 'Rush' I'M not too sure [
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jmcg2014 mark37378
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Sounds like anxiety, doesn't sound like bipolar at all, it's much more complex and disabilating than that
mark37378 jmcg2014
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jmcg2014 mark37378
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Those symptoms are common with anxiety too, and what you describe isn't what a bipolar person would typically describe as mania - more what can be found online from unrealiable websites. Always check with a Dr, but still just sounds like anxiety. Anxiety is a very complex thing, with wide ranging symptoms. Bipolar too is often a collection of problems over many many years, it doesn't really just appear fully formed
mark37378 jmcg2014
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It began as Anxiety, And Slowly over 6 months? Or around that has Just grown on me. I sometime's hardly sleep and behaviour become erratic but I'm just so lost, If I tell someone what I think It could be they are like ''Stop Researching'' it or lying. It's turned my into the biggest Narcissist an Masochist
jmcg2014 mark37378
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It's very true that if you visit a psychiatrist (who as mentioned is the only one legally qualified to diagnose bipolar) and tell them you think you have bipolar symptoms and that you've been researching, your feet won't touch the ground as they try to get you out of their office. This isn't because they think your lying, but if an anxious person researches too much, they will convince themselves that they have the problems they've been researching. This isn't deliberate, but it's what happens to an anxious mind. See a Dr, stop researching yes, and have honest discussions with no embellishments. This isn't a criticism, but if you don't follow this advice, no psychiatrist in the land will take you seriously
mari34228 mark37378
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Hi Mark, anxiety can do all sorts of crazy things to you. People really do not realise how serious a condition it can be. It does sound like it's probably anxiety and most likely a reaction to everything that has been happening. Anxiety can indeed mimic bipolar type symptoms, but there is a lot more to it than what you have described. However only a psychiatrist can give you a proper diagnosis. Have you ever been to see a doctor or anyone about your symptoms? Also have you ever had your thyroid tested yourself? That in itself can cause all sorts of problems, including affecting your behaviour/emotions/mental state. I know this as I went through hell before being diagnosed with an under-active thyroid a number of years ago.
mark37378 mari34228
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I have actually, I had my Thyroid Checked at birth and was all clear (All though it runs in the family) But I'm in the waiting list for a Psychiatrist to help me, My Mental health has been so wrecked since November, I have lost a very close family member from my Childhood, Which more affected me in an Underlying way, I can't sleep at times, I mean I can, but the thought of it is just Ew, I feel sort of Manic when I haven't slept, I just don't know who I am! I'm Me then the next day I like something else, I'm not stable, I'm so easily led mentally! ;( It's like I'm secretly wanting to self destruct for some odd reason
mari34228 mark37378
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Oh, no, I meant have you had it checked recently? It can go wonky at any time. Thyroid problems run in my family too and mine didn't pack in till I was about 30.
I hope you don't have to wait too long to see the psychiatrist. I waited six months for my first psychology appointment!
Lack of sleep is another mimic of bipolar! I've read that people who are sleep deprived can start to exhibit bipolar symptoms.
You've had a lot to deal with emotionally recently and that is bound to take it's toll. It is odd that anxiety/depression can lead to an apparent desire to self-destruct. I have felt similarly myself before. I think it's just another aspect of the brain being messed up. I know it's hard but please try to be kind to yourself and do what you can to relax. I know that when I am feeling emotionally and mentally fraught/hyped that it makes me actually feel angry to try and calm myself. I feel too irritable and annoyed at everything. But it really does help if you can manage it. Just taking some time out to breathe in and out slowly and deeply, and relaxing your muscles. A good way to do this it to actually tense them up (including your face) as much as you can, and then let go. Not all at the same time though! Work up from your feet. People (me!) forget to to breathe (as in breathing too shallow) when they are tense and anxious, but it's important to do it as it really does help to calm the body and brain.
All the best X
mark37378 mari34228
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Thanks Very much
Also May I say, I have read that Sleep Deprivation like I've been having May Cause Bipolar in some cases, I have been experiencing Mania of some sorts, Over the past few days, I know it's not normality, it's not non - normal feeling, but for me it defiantly is. I just, I'm carrying bricks on my shoulders at this point with my eyes closed, I just feel like I'm sinking... It's terrible, and I'm so confused.