I'm lonely,depressed,extremely ugly and need alout of advice
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I'm litterly on the verge of comiting suicide by starting not to eat and drink at all.
Im 19 and ever since I started school I have always been bullied and disliked because of the way i look.I have no friends and never been in a relationship.Im so grotesque ugly that I basically never go out and when I do people always stare at me and give me horrible looks.All iv been doing for the past 10 years is staying in siting on my computer every day,all day.
I guess I think part of the reason iv always been rejected is because people can see that I look different because i have aspergous syndrome and I'm dyslexic.
On top of all that my gran died a few months ago and my bamp who being like a father to me is dying of cancer.
Im never going to have a job becuase I have terrible qualifications,never going to drive,never going to find anyone who loves me because I'm so unbelively ugly,Im never going to have life becuase of the way I am and look.
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borderriever tomos48933
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You have been on this site before and I understand how you must be feeling.
Have you got an activity you are good at ? We have a neighbour around here who had the same problems like you, He was a retired Priest and yes He had problems, however He was very bright on various activities He enjoyed. Has your CPN managed to bring out things that you enjoy
In our County we have various organisations that run various day centres where they try different activities, the centres are generally mixed and many seem to pair up together. Just a suggestion, have words with your GP and see if something is available in your area
BOB
amanda35274 tomos48933
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Oh no. So so sad to read yr post. I really am.:0( i just lost my lovely stepdad to cancer in sept which is what started this major bout of depression for me as he has been there since a couple of yrs after losing my biological dad to cancer also when i was little. The greatest man id ever known. So ive lost them both its an awful feeling so i get where ur coming from. Id definately go to yr local hosp if suicidal & u feel that strongly! Or make an appt with a dr talk about your appearance how much it affects u. The world can be a cruel place tomos im not going to sugar coat that as you have been witness to it for many yrs. Beauty is from within, & unfortunately some ppl cant see it.. seek help there could be lots of options for u. I wish u luck ?? dont do it!!!! Xxxx
hypercat tomos48933
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Hi I wasn't aware that people with aspergers syndrome or dyslexia look any different to anyone else?
Do you have a facial deformity or something? If not then I don't see how you can be grotesquely ugly. What evidence do you have that you are? One of my sisters has a big bump on her nose which to her means she is ugly and has to hide herself away so I do know what I am talking about. It is her reason, her excuse not to socialise and to live the life of a hermit.
I had bad acne from the age of 11 and had very bad scarring and pits in my skin. I have had 2 operations on it which has imroved it quite a bit, but it is still quite bad. No one stares at me though I have had more than my share of 'ugly' jokes by men. It does hurt but on the other hand they or no one is going to stop me living my life and spending it how I want.
Do you think you are depressed? Things always seem a lot worse than they are. See your doctor as med and/or counselling should be able to help you. Don't write yourself off at your young age, there is help available and you owe it to yourself to get all the assistance you can. Don't give up please. x
amanda35274 hypercat
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Exactly what i think bev. Well put & hope ur feeling ok xxx
hypercat amanda35274
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Thanks Amanda. I am feeling a bit brighter thanks but do have a cold now which doesn't help! How are you my friend? x
amanda35274 hypercat
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gary78460 tomos48933
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