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So.. in March, I was called in saying I tested positive for clymidia.. I cried, boyfriend claimed he wasn't cheating.. didn't know he had it. Both got medication and clean. Then he came to "work" and 6 weeks of not seeing each other, we have sex and 2 days later I have an sores on my vag.. I freak out. Think it's ingrown hair. They get very itchy and I'm thinking it a yeast infection, go get 1 day treatment and that's it. Sores are still there and it hurts to move, sit.. anything. Even put pants on, so I finally went into the emergency room and I am diagnosed with genetical herpes.. I thought maybe it could be that. Told my boyfriend I tested positive and again he had no idea he had it and wasn't cheating. I thought my life was over. My mom is my best friend and my sister as well. I called them crying told them what happened, later my mom called me and was like baby it isn't the end of the world, your father had herpes, something I've never shared with you kids. She didn't get the virus though.. they had me and my sister, a happy family. I seem to have the worse of luck getting all this. I am only 18.. the guy who gave me all this is the love of my life. He says he hates himself for giving me all this, that he had no idea. But I love him dearly.. he still wanted to have sex with me and I was surprised. I've only had one breakout and it was June 19th.. now we are the 9th of July and I'm having another outbreak. This all seems to happen when I'm getting my period. So I've noticed these 2 times. I'm going back home with my doctor so she can prescibe me medication, she herself wants to look at it. Since I came into the emergency room (note I'm 20 hours away from home) I came on vacation.. sucked but oh well. Life does go on, it isn't the end of the world. I never wanna sleep with anyone else and give them what I have.. but I have my forever with me. The one who gave it to me. It'll be okay. Someone for everyone, keep that in mind!
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feelbroken Girlwhogetsugh
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I'm going to assume he is older than you and that is how he is able to exploit your naivety. How could he prove you wrong? He's given you two STDs! What more proof do you need honey? Do you really want to wait until it is HIV next.
You are young and have your whole life ahead of you. You should be away going to college and enjoying life, no dealing w an older guy who takes advantage of you. If you move away, you don't have to worry about things getting around so much.
I highly recommend for the type of support you need, to Google H Opportunity. It is a social support forum for those of us w herpes. The owner and the moderators all have herpes and are great counselors. Do not waste another srcon on this guy and certainly don't ever have unprotected sex w him again.
Girlwhogetsugh feelbroken
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But yes, I am going to school. Studying dental hygiene! I have tried so hard to overcome this but then came my 2nd outbreak. So I'm just trying to move on and not think so much about it. My mom and sister still love me the same and my boyfriend does too.. so he says. I mean he gave me this.
Thank you so much for the advice and helping me where to seek advice. Whoever you are, you are a great person!!
feelbroken Girlwhogetsugh
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My best guy friend was w his ex wife for 7yrs and never got herpes from her. It is possible. You really need to go to that site I recommend, it is exactly the support you need.
I think you need to see a counselor to learn to love and respect yourself; if you did, you wouldn't stay w a man that is doing this to you and I am terrified, the next thing you will get is HIV. You do not deserve this treatment.
I know 6 females who have it and got married to men who didn't have it and 4 have had multiple vaginal births w healthy babies. This is not the end for you. I know it's easier said than done, but you need to what's beat for you and end your relationship w this man, before he makes you a shell of who you are now. I can attest first hand to being w a man who doesn't value you, lies to you to keep you and when they're finished w you, leaves you a shell of who you were. I haven't recovered from that 5yra later.
Trust me, people will accept you w this. All those gfs I have, never had rejection, except for one and he still wanted to sleep w her, so he was just there for sex and not in it for a relationship. Please go to that site
Girlwhogetsugh feelbroken
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You have really opened my eyes.
I have realized that my life isn't over, I just gotta be more careful now.. and always use protection. That's cause me and my bf would always use it then we stopped, biggest mistake.
I mean my sister is like your still beautiful, this doesn't change you. Etc..
I hope to live a "normal" life.. and go on. Thank you so much!
Well I hope maybe people are still willing to sleep with me!
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