I'm really unsure what to do now
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I've been doing so so so well, like I was so proud of myself because I was looking back at where I'd been when all this started and I can honestly say I was on my way on being better again, I got put on Microgynon pill which is a hormone tablet as my mum and doctor believed it was hormone imbalance because I have alllllways been a very chilled out person because I like to work things out in my head and give a best solution and suddenly this panic and fear came out of no where.. but anyway I began to take this pill and they seemed to be working, I obviously had to put the work in myself to stop obsessing over this nasty nasty disease anxiety! but anyway I started getting out alot more, seeing all my friends, getting into school everyday and trying to focus on doing well on my gcse's then I had a really rough day this Monday with my friends, nothing in particular happened but because I over analyze every little thing I made an issue out of it and made myself feel reaaaaal lonely and then I had to speak to my 'councilor' which in all honesty I didn't want to do because I know talking about it will reengage all my feelings which it 100% did because now I'm back on here again not knowing what to do with myself because I feel like I've lost my strength to do anything, like I can't think of anything but anxiety. As though there's a big dark grey cloud over my head not letting any thoughts I want to have in
sorry to be person but I'm also due for a period and there's normally a pattern in my behavior and moods and my mum said she notices the anxiety gets alot worse roud about now so I'm just curios whether it could be to do with that? Like I woke up this morning and literally within 3 seconds of waking up ''don't forget you have anxiety'' it's an absolute ball ache dunno what 15 year old goes on like this hahah!
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gillian81509 tanya99
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if you want to Google look up best diets for pms!!!
Still to the pill I hate saying that but if it's helping lets get you settled
don't worry about over analyizing shows an active high iq level you have to tune it in and find something this porshe of a brain can do !!! Find a group or friends you can relate to a discussion group anything where you are chatting with similar
the good thing a out a councillor see it like somewhere neutral to offload all the crapw into the bin and walk away from it that way that episode is closed!!! You have said discussed it and now it's in a bin ended
you are doing very well keep working on vCard etc enjoy being 15
what's your plans Are you doing a levels planning g on a professional career ??
Tc
gillian81509
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tanya99 gillian81509
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And I don't want it to be a part of my life though, I want it to be gone and I want nothing to do with it atall so that's why I hate counciling, it makes me feel as though there's something wrong with me and my head just gets clouded with all this crap again. And honestly I don't even know what I want to do anymore, I feel like I don't know myself properly but I read that can just be part of being a teenager. I don't know if I wanna go college or do an apprenticeship cause I really do't know if college is the best thing for me
confused but thankyou x
gillian81509 tanya99
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Yep I didn't know what to do all this choose your career stuff aaargh all I wanted to do was ride my horse and be a tomboy
eventually I found I liked science and art left school went into the navy as the wrns discipline helped me 200% my excess energy found outdoor activities l learnt to kyjak climb mountain abseil ride motorbikes whilst I was being a dental assistant many many years later I did my access course Then my bsc it took me ages to work out what I wanted
don't stress enjoy being 15
tanya99 gillian81509
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