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I've been doing so so so well, like I was so proud of myself because I was looking back at where I'd been when all this started and I can honestly say I was on my way on being better again, I got put on Microgynon pill which is a hormone tablet as my mum and doctor believed it was hormone imbalance because I have alllllways been a very chilled out person because I like to work things out in my head and give a best solution and suddenly this panic and fear came out of no where.. but anyway I began to take this pill and they seemed to be working, I obviously had to put the work in myself to stop obsessing over this nasty nasty disease anxiety! but anyway I started getting out alot more, seeing all my friends, getting into school everyday and trying to focus on doing well on my gcse's then I had a really rough day this Monday with my friends, nothing in particular happened but because I over analyze every little thing I made an issue out of it and made myself feel reaaaaal lonely and then I had to speak to my 'councilor' which in all honesty I didn't want to do because I know talking about it will reengage all my feelings which it 100% did because now I'm back on here again not knowing what to do with myself because I feel like I've lost my strength to do anything, like I can't think of anything but anxiety. As though there's a big dark grey cloud over my head not letting any thoughts I want to have in sorry to be person but I'm also due for a period and there's normally a pattern in my behavior and moods and my mum said she notices the anxiety gets alot worse roud about now so I'm just curios whether it could be to do with that? Like I woke up this morning and literally within 3 seconds of waking up ''don't forget you have anxiety'' it's an absolute ball ache dunno what 15 year old goes on like this hahah!
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