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I’m sick and tired of living with depression

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Randomname1234
Randomname1234

I’m currently so depressed and have extreme anxiety. I still haven’t been to the doctors about it and it’s been 5 years. I have never posted on a forum like this but I feel the worst I’ve felt in a long time. I haven’t held a job down long term for years and every time I do go to work I feel so anxious about going im already drained by the time I get there. A few years ago my girlfriend left me, then a family member died and  then a close friend died all in the same year. And everyone said I dealt with it all really well but I’m dying inside. I’m only 22 and should be enjoying life but I’m not, I have lots of friends but I don’t feel like I can confide in them, they tell me about how they feel about things and it’s hard because I feel 10 times worse but can’t explain it. I go out and my anxiety is through the roof I am constantly worrying in my head about things and people have no idea. I drink a lot and it doesn’t help, I just don’t know what to do anymore I’m sick of feeling like this.

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  • rieez
    rieez Randomname1234

    Posted

    Hi i'm really sorry you suffers anxiety for so long. It's horrible feelings. Did you take any medication? I also been dealt with 3 relatives died in one year. 2 of them were closed aunt and uncle. It was horrible feelings. I wanted to get sad, but i'm also terrified as the physical symptoms mimics their illness. Everytime my mom talked about their death, i really wanted to cover my ears. It was very traumatic for me as my anxiety were high. Currently i'm trying to find any activity. I wanted some baby steps like doing gardening or something relaxing but i think my parents didn't understand. They want me to get out the house and doing proper job. Just throw me out in the crowd!

    • Randomname1234
      Randomname1234 rieez

      Posted

      I understand how you feel, I haven’t took any medication but realise now I need help and am going to go to the doctors, thank you for your reply means a lot.
  • lynsey72874
    lynsey72874 Randomname1234

    Posted

    Hi, as someone who has suffered with extreme anxiety and depression, I cannot emphasise enough that you need to talk to a doctor. There is still this stigma around mental illness that means people can put off finding help. Medication can help you and you really need to confide in someone and your doctor may be able to help with that. Drinking doesn’t help, it’s only a temporary fix. Know that you are not alone and depression/anxiety are common issues these days, we just choose not to talk about it. Someone I know as a bit of an opinionated and confident loud mouth recently confessed to me that he suffered with extreme anxiety and I was so surprised. We all wear that mask of looking like nothing is wrong but we have to accept sometimes that we need help, doesn’t make you any less of a person. All the very best, you’ll get through this x
    • Randomname1234
      Randomname1234 lynsey72874

      Posted

      Thank you for your reply and kind words, I know now that I need to go to the doctors and get some help and I am going to do that, it’s just hard to open up about your problems when people look to you for help. this is the first time I’ve spoken about it to anybody and I need to stop drinking I know, thank you again x
    • lynsey72874
      lynsey72874 Randomname1234

      Posted

      I am so with you on having people looking to you for help, I’ve always put other people ahead of myself. It’s a quality I greatly admire but you must put yourself first sometimes. This is that time. You will feel so much better for it.
  • jan34534
    jan34534 Randomname1234

    Posted

     Depression is a very difficult thing and I’m sure it’s hard for you to deal with. I know how it feels.  

    You have had some losses and those can definitely trigger anxiety and depression. You’ve also been grieving. It’s good to get support when you’re going through this. Is there anyway you can get some counseling for this?

    It helps to talk to someone else and get some ideas on how to manage it.  It’s been along time since you’ve been at the doctors and it’s good to get a physical check up at least once a year anyway.

    It’s not good to be isolated all the time because that can magnify the depression.

    I would say to schedule an appointment with your doctor and also with a counselor for a good Start.

    You tube has great audio meditations for depression, anxiety, grief etc. 

     yes, drinking can definitely increase anxiety  as well as depression because alcohol is a depressant.  Try to find something else that you enjoy doing to keep busy. 

    • Randomname1234
      Randomname1234 jan34534

      Posted

      It is hard but I’ve dealt with it along time now, it’s the anxiety on top which only seems to be getting worse, and yes I may need counselling I’m not sure what I need, like I say I’m going to book in the doctors and get some help with these feelings, thanks for replying.
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