I'm so confused!
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Hi everyone,
This is my first time posting and its taken me weeks to pluck up the courage to do even this.
I've not been feeling myself for quite a while now, more so when I'm alone. The worst thing I'm finding at the minute is when I'm at home and someone knocks on the door. My heart instantly starts beating out of my chest, I start shaking (which is getting worse every time) and I just generally feel panicked.
I hide so I don't have to answer unless its someone I'm expecting which isn't very often. I've started closing the blinds through the day now too so if someone comes and knocks, they can't see if I'm home. It makes me feel a bit safer but I still have a full on panic when someone knocks.
Its gotten to the stage now where I feel totally afraid to leave the house. I literally take my little boy to school, come home, close the blinds and stay there until I pick hi up again.
I have no idea why this has started but I feel its getting worse. I've talked very openly about it to my husband but no-one else as I feel a bit silly and that people will laugh it off and say I'm being stupid.
I've thought about going to the doctors however, in the past when I've been to my doctor about different things, every time I leave feeling like I have been fobbed off and completely wasted her time so really can't force myself to go about this as its so hard to explain.
Has anyone else felt like this? Does it sound like something serious or can anyone help or advise what I can do to try and stop it?
Thank you in advance x
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Purpledobermann Mac88
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lynne82155 Mac88
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Welcome to the forum
Your in a bit of a pickle
You are going to have to trust people eg a doctor or a therapist
This is all going to get much worse if you dont get help.
No one is going to harm you they will only help you and you have to help yourself as well
Go and get the help you need and deserve
Perhaps talk to family or friends
Stay Strong
candace58535 Mac88
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Guest Mac88
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Mac88 Guest
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I'm ok in general, just can't get past this "knocking on the door" thing. I feel much better when my husband is at home so have been ok over the weekend but its still always in my mind about someone knocking.
We were in the garden with the weather being nice and it was constantly on my mind, if someone comes they'll know we're here as they'll hear us. Really don't know where its came from and I suppose at the end of the day, whether people hear you or not, its your own decision as to whether you answer the door/let people in etc. but just can't get rid of the nervous/scared feeling.
Back on my own again today and the weather is lovely but I just know I'll lock myself away as I dare not go in the garden on my own in case someone comes!? So frustrating!
richard89308 Mac88
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