I'm so sick and tired of Doctor saying too young

After doing tons of research online, and then going from having normal period every single month to, 2 in one month then nothing for 7 weeks and then bleed again, I'm still bleeding very very lightly and it's been 8 days,

For the last 2 years I started having panic attacks (out of the blue), horrific and always early hours in the morning, thinking i was having heart attack,

Hair loss, weight gain, major fatigue, brain fog, loss of libido (for me sex is like blades it's hurts and I've no interest in it, my partner is getting fed up)

I was sick of back n forth to the doctors,

But since my periods have been all over the place, I've gone downhill fast,

Oral thrush 3 times,

2 seperate times having vaginal swabs and came back yeast /bacteria infection and given thrush treatment, (even though no symptoms of vaginal thrush),

No follow up check ups

Blood tests came back, doctor rang me and said "your hormone levels are fine however I think you have a brain tumour it's not cancerous and we will do blood test in 2 months, she said it was" microplactoma ",

Then I read if your perimenopause that the hormones fluctuate so much it would take a blood test every day for 3 months to check them,

I've kept onto them and they are not having any of it" your too young your 43"

I've started suffering terrible insomnia I've never had before,

When I had rage the other day and felt like smashing my house up

the doctor said on the phone when I rang to go see the nurse as I'll prescribe you the mini pill that will help with your PMS,

I sat and cried with the nurse, but she did my blood pressure and pulse and went and got the doctor,

The doctor said "you need to calm yourself down your blood pressure is high and your pulse is 130 if u don't calm down it can cause a heart attack,

I told her I didn't feel rage just annoyed about not feeling well and been in my bed for weeks no motivation,

Then I noticed when walking upstairs that my knees were making a squelching noise, and now I'm at the point when I bend my knee it sounds like someone walking over broken glass it's awful and painful and I've lost 2 inches in height,

Again rang the doctor today about it and guess... Prescription for cocodamols, saying he can't give me anti inflammatory as I have a hiatus hernia which I'm awaiting surgery for,

I'm worried now I might have oestraprosis, I'm sure I read somewhere that if perimenopause isn't treated It can lead to it,

So I've bought a load of vitamin supplements hoping for a few days to feel normal,

I've also developed a lump in my thumb by the joint which is getting bigger,

I feel like a hypochondriac, but I just wish I'd get this magic pill from the doctor and they knew what was going on with me,

There just looking at each symptom on its own instead of adding everything up,

I'm so low as I've never conceived a child and I can't believe I won't be a mother, my partner is 16 years younger and has put up with so much from me,

We been together 8 years and he wants a child, well he is missing having sexual contact with me, I don't even want hugs from him and I feel bad,

Sorry this is so long everyone just wanted to give the whole picture

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