I'm so tired of being robbed of Joy in my life
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I am only 65 and I feel like 80 plus. At this point I just don't know how it will all end. It's like waiting for my train to thrown off the tracts.I go through daily pain and exhaustion, Because of issues it is a major effort....because of nerve pain..... to even take a shower. I don't go to slleep until about 3 in the morning because of hietial hernia reflux pain when I lay down and try to sleep. Here arethe thing I have and had t6o gto through;
At ptesent REFLUX/GERD WITH HIETIAL HERNIA NEAR DIAPHRAGM...motility test done but waiting for surgery. Diverticulitis. ADRENAL TUMORS.Stomach spasms A-Fib.Tightness in chest, and shallow breathing
HISTORY
Polyneuropathy 2015. Operation for L5 Disc herniation/ compression and traversing right S1 nerve root and a Synovial lumbar Cyst was removed 2015. Occipital Perifiral Neropathy and nerve stimulator in neck 2012 (so no MRI). Neurogenic bladder 2010, had Bladder stimulator but taken out later. Diabetis 1997 Inflammation of disc degeneration DX in 1996 Fusions at C-5 and C-7 and shoulder surgeries in ' 93 and '01. Malrotated stomach surgery at birth (scare tissue removed in 2004).
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kaz_40 david72297
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Dotcon david72297
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Bee70 david72297
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No-one like pain and you have been through alot. I hope you are able to enjoy one day at a time and pace your day accordingly to what you can do? Pain is no fun thing to have and staying positive and stressfree unfortunatley the way forward. Meds work for some and not others. Life is a challenge and we must make the most of life and not allow the illnesses take over. The mind is a powerful thing we all have and able to control it can be a challenge. Have you tried CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy), it's a mindfulness of the thought process that we go through each day.
Hope you get the answers you need. The people on this forum have fantastic advice and support for all.
Take care and gentle hugs xx
christine26761 david72297
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diagnosisisalie david72297
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christine26761 diagnosisisalie
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Bee70 christine26761
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Have a good weekend xx
christine26761 Bee70
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Flowerlady david72297
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anytime, day or night..
david72297 Flowerlady
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deb97936 david72297
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I have come down the ladder so to speak, and now financially drained because of a lot of issues to do with my MVA, and ongoing legal and specialists finances. I even have a 4WD that is rotting away now as I cannot use it due to limited $$'s now. Apparently I'm told from another branch that I should be getting other assistance and on another type of 'supported living' benefit now, but it's very difficult to get any further assistance they are talking of. What one branch offer another definitely doesn't and go to great length to deny. Terribly really. No consistancy between branches.
My car is/was my only independance, and much the same as have a internet connection, also helped to keep me 'sane'.
So what one has to do is suck it up, and I guess try and look at the simple little things like may give you a little joy, lightening up. Even if it is just watching the sun come up or going down. Bird watching, craft, artwork, music and converstation. You have to try and sometimes create your own sense of joy.. I definitely know it's hard, real hard. BUT I have to remind myself daily that it could be worse, I could be living under a bridge in the cold.
So my Artwork, my cat and dog, a TV, and my 'now recently broken' Laptop (the screen part has fractured off the hinge. I am unable to shut it. It must have had a knock at some point, but I don't ever remember doing anything to it, not ever dropped it either. But anyway it has to last me... out with the good old Plumbers tape. lol... and my cell phone ARE ALL my physical elements that help keep me sane. The REST is all nature... and throw in the odd physical converstion when I see some one occasionally.
So your not on your own David with feeling like your stripped of Joy in life.. We maybe stripped of some things, but hold to good memories, and look for again those small things that have that 'feel good' element/quality...We are somewhat limited but we aren't 'in the ground yet!'... :-))
And a good Vent at times does help clear the gremlins out for a while aye!!
Hugs
david72297 deb97936
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Thanks again. We will talk again.
christine26761 deb97936
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kaz_40 deb97936
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