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Sorry if this isn't written in the best way, I'm currently very tired.
Due to the recent weather I've had the windows open rather a lot, and because of this a few flies and misquitoes have occasionally managed to make their way in. As soon as I hear that bzzing I have to immeditely drop what I'm doing so I don't make any noise, I start to sweat a very uncomfortable amount, I have to try to stop shaking because then I wouldn't be able to follow its every move around my place. I start to feel like I'm covered in flies and like I have to scratch myself all over as if imaginary ones are crawling on my skin, and sometimes I even start to actually SEE imaginary ones flash before my eyes.
This is bad enough, but because I live on my own it's very much me versus the fly, and the fly always wins. I end up having to vacate whatever room I was in otherwise (and this is embarrassing) I start to cry, because I feel like the fly is taunting me and deliberately making me feel this way by not leaving; especially on a bad day, when I just don't need to be feeling the way they make me feel, you know.
The reason I'm writing this now is because it's reached a whole new level of terrified and uncomfortable tonight. Here I am sitting on my sofa at this time in the morning, because I heard a fly near my bed maybe 20 minutes ago, so I instantly grabbed a towel, covered myself, threw a t shirt on and ran to the sofa. I'm really really really tired and I so desperately want to go back to bed right now, but I can't, because I know there's a mosquito in there, I've scratched half my body up just writing this.
It feels as if I'm not going to get any sleep at all tonight, it feels like I'm just going to sit here sweating and scratching until the sun comes up- and then some.
To go back to the question, what should I do about this? I mean I'm seriously not too far away from just not opening the windows and melting in the heat, or even trying to sleep in the bathroom where I haven't ever spotted a single fly. Please help!
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