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I feel ''wrong'' all the time and I feel guilt and shame a lot and overthink every conversation with people around me and ALWAYS find something strange... like people are hiding something from me or they only want to hurt me because of something I did that I don't exacly remember and I really should feel guilty about it, because they all can't be wrong... And I even started feeling like I'm being someone I'm actually not (like evil or have some opinions that I don't actually have or something that is truly opposite of me)... All I can say is that I am very afraid of this feeling. Sometimes I'm feeling suicidal because of this and angry and simply scream and cry... I hate being around people because I feel like they are all morally better than me and that I need to punish myself.. I always need to prove others that I'm great human and really do all just to help others and give them love... But all I give to myself is guilt and hate... and suicidal feeling. I really want to know why I'm feeling like this?! Am I becoming someone I'm not?
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