I may be delusional
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But I thought this site was about people helping each other, no matter how crazy the problem may be. My mind is racing about somebody I don't even know, I don't know why I feel the way I feel for her but it is what is and I can't do anything about it. Why is it so hard for people to be open? I feel like I'm losing my mind over her and everybody seems to be brushing it off...
2 posts since yesterday and still ignored. Call me petty or overreacting but a problem is still a problem and the silence is a problem... I can't wait to anticipate any sort of reply or counselling from this post...
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trudagh_04398 luis03203
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You say you’re worried about someone you never met and you have racing thought to me it sounds that you have some kind of anxiety going on
I don’t know the solution but any sort of racing thoughts are dibilating
I really don’t know the solution it’s a difficult one
luis03203 trudagh_04398
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Yeah... me too. I guess I can only wait until next September for any sort of closure on it.
Didn't mean to overreact over getting no replies, I was in a confusing place.
Guest luis03203
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Hey, as I see it one often relpies to posts one can relate to as one feels that would be most helpful - so maybe no-one could relate to your post so far & maybe who read it thought someone else will & be able to help better. No-one is ignoring you, it is just hard to come up with an advise when one can't relate.
I read your other post & though I haven't been in a situation like this maybe getting some replies helps you anyway to sort things out. To me it sounds like what they call infatuation (as you are into a art think of a muse for instance, I guess that is how arists may feel about them?) - somehow that girl managed to leave a lasting impression on you & even though it might seem weird to you to still think about her & make up scenarios, I don't think it is creepy. You mentioned some facebook post of your potential class mates doing some exercise in your other post - can you maybe find out who she is that way? If she is on facebook maybe you can message her & get to know her..you have something in common after all & I am sure you can think of something that doesn't sound creepy...like you saw her at the audition & she seemed like a very nice person - you will start next year & were wondering how things there are working & what you expect then since she is there already or something casual like that, I don't know - that's up to you anyway. In the worst case you won't get an answer, in the best case you can maybe get to know her a bit & find out how the course is going so you know what is waiting for you with the drama course as well. Maybe because you didn't have the chance to really talk to her is why you can't get over it as well - maybe it feels like a missed chance & now she seems like a mystery that you can't solve. I don't know, I make s**t up as I go here tbh. :P but I can imagine it effects you a lot & I guess the sooner you can get your head straight the better for your well-being. Hope that helped somehow but see, 2 answers already, no-one is ignoring you.
I wish you all the best.
luis03203 Guest
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Hey, you're more accurate than you may think.. this whole situation does feel like it's one of those missed opportunities, or I may still infatuated after 9 months or maybe both. Either way, I don't think I'll be able to let go of it until I actually get a grasp on who she might be. It doesn't really help the fact that I have this burning feeling of not being on the course. I have tried investigating if she was on Facebook, but I haven't found her.
Well at least, I could be able to get info on how the course is from another guy that's doing it, who happens to be the same nationality as me.
Also, sorry for sounding a bit overreacting, it was a confusing time.
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Hi Mrs, I dunno why I'm posting but what you said resonated with me. So, I've been looking for any indications of the girl's name and I went as for to text another that had liked an Instagram post. I asked about if she knew the guy that was in the audition because he isn't really active on Facebook and I pretty much explained the gist of why I couldn't do the course this year. Then after more time of digging online, it hit my like a brick that the girl I was already talking to WAS her. The only thing I got wrong was that I thought she was from Prague, I literally heard a girl say that from her direction on the audition day!
And now I feel sooo stupid and relived at the same time because I can put the silence to rest and I may get to know about the course without even being there from her. She hasn't replied to my last few messages where I ask if she could do it if the other guy doesn't reply, but I don't really want to expect anything. I at least have the baggage of my back and finally relax...
Just incase you wanted an update on this whole shenanigan! Take care, thanks for trying to help
Guest luis03203
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Relying to both your replies in one now.
As for the "over-reacting" - don't worry - I am an impatient person with regards to some things as well, so in a way I can understand your need for some answer & your "damn it, I just want some f*****g sort of insight at least"-post. It is hard to feel overwhelmed & confused not really knowing where to turn to. But as I said, I am sure people read your initial post but couldn't relate, so what to write then? (I am guilty of that as well btw ;p ) But it seems like getting some sort of exchange going, whether one can relate or not, maybe helped a bit - it is always hard to tell what people are looking for when they post something. I am sorry for all the typos in return - I was pretty sleepy when I wrote - so all is fine. ;P
Many thanks for the update though - that is really great for you. Life is funny sometimes, isn't it? ^^ Great you did some more digging then & I am glad with good you this result - I am happy for you & I cross my fingers that things turn out well. Yes, I guess it is better not to expect too much than having one's hopes crushed but I hope she will happily keep you updated about the course & you can get to know each other a bit that way.
I guess with how things turned out now it doesn't really matter anymore but what popped in my head during the day today is that maybe the fact that you knew you would most likely see her again had something to do with the way you felt too. If you had known it would have been a one-time encounter, I guess it would have been easier to accept that & move on in a way. But the way it was possible played a role in fueling your imagination - how you could finally meet her again & have a chance to get to know her, how she is like as a person, how you two would interact & get along etc..I would imagine it sort of keep you in a state of excitement, anticipation & hope - I would imagine it is hard to let go with that. People get infatuated with so-called "stars" all the time, I guess it is sort of interesting to feel that way about a "ordinary" person without a "artifical" aura around her, if you know what I mean. I am not infatuated but there is an artist that always is very intriguing & incredibly fascinates to me everytime I come back to his music since many years...what I am trying to say is - I guess sometimes people or what they radiate can have a hold of us - esp when it connect to something inside of us and somehow inspires...something about her must have done that, I would assume. If it had been her looks I guess it would have been too obvious for you to get confused about it - but, yeah now you have a chance to fine out what it was/is about her that made you feel like that & I wish you the best of luck for that.
Again, many thanks for the update - often people don't do that & I truely appreciate it.
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