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I will have these episodes occasionally and today i had the worst one ive ever experienced. basically it feels so strange but my mind feels COMPLETLY blank. It's like everything has been erased and everything will feel distant, when i grab things around me they feel big and far away and just the senses are wierd. its hard to explain. I will feel dizzy and i dont know what to do with my self. So confused aswell, for example i tried to do the hoovering but i got confused and didn't know how to approach it. it stumped me. I then went for a walk. i thought that might help but i was still dizzy and didn't know if i was just going to drop dead or what, everything was a total daze. The route i know so well looked different and i got really confused again. i felt all floaty too. i was even questioning if im still alive because my brain didn't feel it. It honestly feels like my brain is about to shut down and im not going to wake up.
Doctors say its panick attacks but the thing is the symptoms are all to do with my brain. Ok fair enough i was breathing heavy had sweaty palms and my legs were shaking and weak but i was scared, who wouldnt be. but no rapid heart beat at all you see. Why im concerned that its not panick attacks is becasue inbetween each episode i feel the same symptoms all the time. My mind is empty, i have no opinion on anything, no interest on anything, no dream no ideas ... its like i don't even have a brain. my personality has changed dramatically. Most of the time im in such a daze i feel barely alive. I get up everyday after a restless nights sleep, with a constant dull headache, pressure behind my eyes, dry mouth, feel hungover, look hungover, and with no mind at all. lifeless. i wonder around the house not knowing what i want to do. I just dont want to do anything. i dont care about anything. i know this is depression but this constant empty mind is scaring me and the thing is im depressed because of this! because im not me and becasue i cant work to my full potential. becasue i cant enjoy anything. im failing at uni but i dont even care anymore, and when i try and do work now its so hard to pull something together. and ontop of that it doesnt even make sense, its a mess.
im only 20 but i cant help but think dementia or an undetected tumor. honstly i can't exagerate enought how ill i felt in the head today when i was confused and couldnt think. consequently, i cant help but think that its something serious.
If anyone have any information on these symptoms or just anything at all it will be greatly appreciated as i want to get to the bottom of this.
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