I need help
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For a while I've been feeling the worst. I've been diagnosed with anxiety, agoraphobia and claustrophobia but never depression. agoraphobia is no longer an issue for me and I handle much better my anxiety. I don't see any psychologist and my parents, I doubt they would let me. I'm 18 and live with my parents.
The problem is that I've been feeling on extreme edge. I can hide it but I feel myself about to lose my mind I know I have depression because I self harm ever since I was in 6 grade and have thought about suicide but never want to commit it. I want to live, I don't want to die. I often fear myself losing my mind. I'm afraid of losing control over myself, I feel sick. I don't know what to do. I genuinely don't feel normal, it scares me. I can't spend time with my siblings like a normal older sister, I get annoyed so fast I always want to be alone in my room and talk to nobody but I'm scared to be alone. I recently deleted all my social media and only contact a few people. I can't handle anything at all, I don't know what could be wrong with me. I don't want to disappoint my parents with them finding out how bad mentally I am. anyway they wouldn't understand why I feel like this. I don't even know why. I'm afraid of myself. I'm ashamed and I'm scared of seeking help. I don't know where to go, who to talk to, how to pay for help when I can barely afford it and don't want to ask my parents to pay. I don't know what to say either. I would just look stupid and crazy... I don't want to be crazy. On top of all of that, my memory has gotten so much worse, I quit college, I don't work because I'm afraid of interviews and not being able to keep the job.
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alice05414 maryv99033
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hi.. all of your troubles are related to anxiety and depression. I want you to know i can totally relate myself with your situation right now. I have faced similar scenarios and by that i would advise you that everything can be sorted only if you are able to get over your anxiety and depression and you can't deal with many things on your own. It is high time you reach out to a psychotherapist and joint CBT sessions. along with that you might get some anti-depressant medications under you health expert's guidance. Follow up the mental health therapies and you will find your self overcoming all the false perceptions and symptoms due to depression.
Molly345 maryv99033
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Talk to someone! Hopefully you have some good people in your life who will support you, be it friends, family, or professionals. Talking out whatever is hurting you will be beneficial.
In addition, or in the unfortunate case that you don’t feel you can open up to anyone, meditation will be your best friend. Sit for a few minutes, however long you can, and try to just focus on your breath. Whatever thoughts come into your head, allow them to come and go freely. Don’t hold onto or delve into them. If you notice yourself getting distracted, return to focusing on your breath. This practice will help you to see things more clearly, non-judgementally, and to process your feelings in a healthy way.
joshuapryce1987 maryv99033
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All is not as it seems. I think you should go to your parents for help and speak to them. They care about you, and will help you better yourself. There is no shame in finding help and support from loved ones, i have done it myself. Invest in your loved ones, and you will get pay for that, multiplied.