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10 years ago, when I was 36, I had a c-section birth for twins. When my first period after their birth started, it was like a murder scene. I had always had, my entire life, what I thought was heavy periods. This is MUCH worse. Over the last 10 years, my periods have been that heavy on day 2 and maybe 3 and 4, but for the most part, it would be just like my normal period for the rest of my normal 7 or 8 day cycle. Yes, my periods have ALWAYS been that long. For the last couple of years, my periods have gotten gradually WORSE. It starts out very light, hardly noticeable, and on day 2, WHAM! every time I stand up, it gushes out of me and I flood HEAVY overnight pads, several a day. Can't cough or sneeze or it's running down my legs. Wearing a tampon (or two side by side) is pointless, they just soak through and through in minutes.) I know I'm perimenopausal, and probably was already when I got pregnant with the twins(two periods a month for several months at that time), because I'm also experiencing hot flashes and night sweats and lately, I just want to cry a lot without really knowing why. This whole 10 years, I have been passing LARGE clots. One even filled the entire bottom of the toilet. I have not had one that big in years and that was the only one I ever had that was that big. But, most of them larger than a quarter. I have gone a few months without a period, once it was 5 months before I had one. But, most of the time, I stop bleeding and 2 weeks later I start bleeding again. The last 3 periods I've had have been murder scene bleeding for EVERY DAY of my period and the last one lasted 10 days. I'm currently in the third in a row like this, and I'm desperate for some relief. There are times when I can sit on the toilet and the blood will just run out of me, like a faucet turned on just above a trickle, for several minutes. I have health insurance, but I can't afford to use it. I can't afford the deductible, I can't afford prescriptions, and even the co-pay sometimes, is not possible. I'm also 7 years post a very psychologically abusive relationship(although we have kids together so technically I still deal with it daily. No he does not pay child support. Long story short he's very manipulative and was able to get out of that too) and have, for some reason, a very big anxiety of doctors now. I'm not sure why, I never did before, I can only assume it's relational, somehow, to my abuse. But, for whatever reason, when I even think about going to the GYN, I get palpitations and I just want to cry. I take an iron tablet daily, along with Vitamin C, and during my period, I take the iron and C two or 3 times a day along with 3 NSAID tabs. Nothing helps, although I sometimes wonder if I stopped doing this would I bleed to death one night in my sleep. Cold packs do NOT help at all. In fact, I think it makes it worse. I'm concerned a doctor isn't going to believe me because I still work when it's like this. But, I don't have a choice. I have to work. I can't call off for 7 or 8 days straight. I just take A LOT of pads with me and use the bathroom every 20 mins if I have to. I have had accidents at work and bring a couple changes of pants/underwear and wash cloth with me just in case, and I've had to use them. I feel so stuck and scared and I don't know what to do. In fact, I'm right now, asking myself why I bothered to post here because i know what everyone will say. "Go to the doctor." But, I can't. I can get over the phobia/anxiety, but I can't pay for it so there's just no way I can go. I guess I'm just hoping someone can suggest something that I haven't tried yet that can at least slow down/reduce my blood flow while I put some money aside for a while. Any help is greatly appreciated.
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