I need help! I don't want to be here anymore
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I have necer felt so low in all my life and I have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks for over 30 years. I am in such a horrible situation and I feel that I am putting my family in danger if I stay here. My daughter who is 16 has been suffering with severe stomach cramps for the 2 months and has missed school since then. This is the most critical time in her life as it is the time of her GCSE exams. My husband is also diabetic and is really suffering with hypos all the time. I am constantly panicking that either of them are going to end up in hospital and selfishly worrying about myself as I dont want to be left on my own and know that I cant let my daughter deal with this on her own. She doesn't deserve a mother like me, I am putting her in danger as I can't even get her back to the doctor because anxiety sets in. I just need to be out of this life, I can't deal with this anymore. I need my family well again and no worries but everyday there is something else to worry about. It has got so bad I even worry about the weather.
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evergreen karen2066
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karen2066 evergreen
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paul30710 karen2066
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archemedes karen2066
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It is the absolute option of everyone to end their own lives lives, but I think what you need to seriously consider is the effect this would have on everyone that you would leave behind.
For example the disasterous effect it could have on your husband's health not to mention his state of mind, and just what a lasting mark it would leave on your daughter.
There is no easy way of putting this, but life isn't easy and if we just abondon it altogether, how would we have ever known if it will have worked out well in the end?
Death is final, there is nothing at all to look forward and nothing to look back on.
Life on the other hand is not easy, but where it exists there is always hope.
So gather all your strength and courage and just do your best to cope with things as they are, because tomorrow is another day and life can improve.
molly70240 karen2066
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anne240 karen2066
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Don't say your daughter does not deserve a mother like you. My daughter has supported me and says she finds it very hard to see me in deep depression, but that has made her want to train as a counsellor. We think we are a burden, but I bet if we asked your daughter, she would say you are a great mum.
No please don't say you need to be out of this life. What would they do without you? They need you as much as you need them Karen. When I took an overdose I still remember my daughter seeing me in hospital with tears streaming down her face.
I am sure you are not putting your family in danger. You have to try and be strong for them. I know it is hard, but think how they would feel if you took your own life. It would affect them for ever. Your daughter needs her mum and your husband needs his wife.
I know you just want it all to go away, and I feel so very much for you. Your daughter will tell you how much she loves you and needs you. Can someone else go with her to the doctor's appointments?
mina014 karen2066
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Hello Karen,
I read your post and it's heartbreaking as I'm in a similar situation so I feel your pain. How are you doing now ? Have you tried probiotics and cleaning your diet and your daughters e.g no gluten dairy suger etc
i hope your feeling Bette