I need something advice.

Accept and open up to his love, believe him. I've been in a loyal relationship with a man I'm absolutely in love with for over 3 years. Literally, one random day I began feeling some burning on my skin on my vagina around my anus. Thinking maybe it was an after effect from already being sick and suffering from diahrrea I didn't think much of it until I developed what I thought was a cyst. It was a small raised lump. I went to see my OBGYN who swabbed the area and visually diagnosed me with genital herpes. I was absolutely in disbelief due to the fact that I had only slept with one other man whom I was in a loyal, or what I thought was loyal, relationship (he wasn't the greatest person). I absolutely didn't believe the diagnosis and I had refused to take the antiviral she prescribed me. Later on that night I began seeing little red bumps start to form and that one lump I originally had, started turning onto a cluster of three perfectly sized ulcers. I spent the last few days obsessing over the fact that this may be a possibility even though I couldn't find a single picture on Google to resemble my outbreak. I began to accept it and I hit rock bottom. Every bad thought crossed my mind, suicide, being alone, leaving the love of my life because how could anyone wanna be with someone like me? That was disgusting right? ... Well so I thought. I disclosed this to him actually the day I walked out of the clinic, he was in shock also because he had never had any outbreaks. But he told me he wasn't worried, he understands I have a auto immune disease as well and that things happen and this is something I could have also potentially caught from my ex (because I can remember he did have a cold sore on his mouth ONCE our whole relationship) and since my health is at a spiral downfall at the moment this was a perfect time for my body to have an outbreak (5 years later). So I absolutely accepted the fact he may have passed HSV1 to me genitally and that's exactly what happened, my doctor called me a week later and gave me the diagnosis. Long story short, you're not alone. My obgyn explained to me that it's more of a skin condition that flares up when you're run down etc rather then an sti. It's society that puts this big frown on it and looks down on it. Do some research on your strain, and really really read into it. It's scary whenever an outbreak occurs but trust me when your man says it's ok. This actually brought me and mine closer together. We continue to have sex (I'm outbreak free) and he's performed oral on me. It hasn't changed a thing in our relationship. He doesn't look at me any differently and I believe him and love&appreciate him so much for it. Open yourself up to him and practice sex safely whenever an outbreak is going to happen. Just trust him and read more into these groups as well. I promise it gets easier .. Stay strong.