I think I have borderline personality disorder, what should I do?
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I'm a 19 year old female and I think I have borderline personality disorder. I have felt the symptoms for about two years. It's something that I thought I have had for awhile, but passed it off as teenage hormones. I have talked to my doctor before - I told him I thought I was depressed. He didn't do any testing or anything, right away just said "nope." The past year or so I have been having pretty instable moods. There are minutes/hours/days that I feel extremely depressed or anxious or guilty and other times I feel amazing. And occasionally, I feel normal for a couple hours or maybe even a day or two. There are also times where my self confidence sky rockets, and other times I feel worthless and I hate the way I look. I never realised how much of an issue this was until I got into a romantic relationship. There are times that I feel extremely clingy towards my SO, other times I get into a depressing spiral of thoughts that I want to break up with them. I have also struggled with self harm for the past 6 years or so.
I still live at home, and my parents are aware that I talked to my doctor about depression and they know that my doctor thought I was perfectly fine, so they most likely will say that it is all in my head.
But now that I am aware that my moods and feelings might be due to this, I want help. I want to get better.
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masha17 alex78288
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Hi,
I'm sorry to hear that you have been experiencing these fluctuations of mood, feelings and thoughts.
When you say that you saw a doctor (who thought you weren't depressed), was he a shrink or a GP? Can you afford to see a shrink?
If it is indeed a personality disorder (or any other kind - mood, depression...) you should see a specialist before starting any treatment. I don't know where you live and what the policies are, but in certain countries GPs can (and very often do!) prescribe antidepressants or other meds without referring their patients to a specialist.
What you describe does sound like a borderline disorder according to what you can usually find on the internet, and that's nowhere near enough to be sure. Even if someone who suffers from the borderline personality disorder tells you that they experience the same symptoms, it's not enough. Only a specialist can establish that diagnosis.
I have a friend who's borderline and with the help of her shrink (she has seen a few over the years) she's learning how to deal better with her moods, feelings and thoughts. In the past few years she has managed to change careers, get out of bad relationships... and all in all feel better about herself.
Please see a specialist and take care of yourself, eat well, exercise, spend time with positive people,identify stress triggers and try to either avoid them or learn how to deal better with them, try yoga and meditation.
john23172 alex78288
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Hi Alex, I'm sorry to hear how your keeping.
I can only make a suggestion from personal experience, as I live in the U.K. you should contact the N.H.S. help line 111.
This number is also available on line through the N.H.S.
Please contact a relevant help line, these people are there 24 hrs a day and can help you, if you are feeling of self harm tell someone, because we who are left behind are the one's who suffer because we didn't know, they kept it to themselves and we are wondering where we went wrong, so do it now.
Be brave and open up.
God bless
John