I think I'm going crazy!!! Please help me!
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Hello!
These days my anxiety and panic is out of control!!! I very scared that my body won't be able to handle this huge stress! I can't calm myself! The adrenalin is going through my body, I'm sweating, shaking, my heart beats really fast, I'm not able to eat (I have only 90lbs) and even sleep! I always wake up on adrenalin rush or panic! This night I had 2 panic attacks during night...
What makes me the most anxious and panic is feeling that i'm going crazy!!!!!
My thoughts, images, memories are huge mess!!! They randomly pop up! They are fast and make no sense!!! They are really obsessive!
I feel like my memory and all memories are damaged forever!!! I also always get strong feeling that I experience some particular situations before, but I cat remember if I really did or not! Especially during stressful situations! It's so scary and it makes me more anxious and frustrated!!! Like my memory is totally damaged and insane!
I also have several deja vu episodes during the day! I can't read or watch TV!!! Even my images in head sometimes feel like deja vu and I got it even in sleep! I'm very scared that I have epilepsy! It is my biggest phobia of all!!! This fear actually cause me this strong anxiety! ... I have heard that deja vu can be cause by stress, even my therapist told me this, but I can't stop worry that I have undiagnosed epilepsy! (I have read that this epilepsy is usually misdiagnosed for anxiety and panic disorder)
I also have episodes that whole reality seems strange to me! Like I'm in dream world! Like I'm sink deep in my thoughts! Everything is odd, foreign! Like I stop understand the world!
It can take hours and even days...and I during this I sometimes feel like there is something missing on my body or I got feeling like I'm going to hit invisible wall...
Besides is I also have around 50 more anxiety symptoms...some of them passed and some appears...I feel very weak...
I had CT scan done, EEG, special blood tests, hormones blood test...everything came out perfect!!!
I still can't stop my panic mode! I'm afraid that I have undiagnosed disease and that I'm developing serious mental disease!!!
I'm only 20, I have school but I absolutely can't focus on it! I needed to shut work for few days also because my anxiety went too far!!!
My therapist prescribes me meds, Today is second day on it but she said that it will took few days to start working
But she said that If this meds won't work, I must be send to hospital because my anxiety is too severe!!! It makes me even more anxious!!! Now I'm very scared that I end up in mental institution!
I really want my life back!!!!!
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emily72720 juffy28325
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Dude, you need to calm down, I know it's so so hard but look, you had ECG done and that wad fine, if you had had something wrong with your heart it would of picked it up even if it was years ago it would show, blood tests fine, everything is perfect, you said it yourself.
You dream when you have a over active mind, you need to try to relax more, try yoga classes I think that will help you allot, you have got to think to yourself everything your thinking and feeling, your still here, good look keep calm and write it down
juffy28325 emily72720
Posted
Thank you very much for reply!
Actually, It was not ECG but EEG test for epilepsy...
I feel that my heart is OK...
My mind is truly over active, but can it cause all of this??
AJ97592 juffy28325
Posted
Hi
Read a book called "the panic switch". I listen to it on audible and i can't recommend it enough.
Will help straight away!
RydiaMoone juffy28325
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Hi Juffy I am sorry that you are going throught this but you are not alone. I suffer from extreme anxiety which means that I am in a heightened anxiety state all the time. I can relate the memory stuff that you talk about. I have what i call flashbacks of random memories that just keep coming and coming all day. If I see something in an old movie or outside or driving it triggers something in my memory and boom the feeling of being back there in that memory happens. I know that we all get these memory feelings at times but mine are way too intensified to the point that i cant stand how they make me feel. Its literally driving me nuts. What you are experiencing with the feelings of unreality and not feeling like a dream is derealisation and i have had it more than once. You may also be suffering from depersonalisation which is a part of extreme anxiety. Its horrible but in will go away in time. I know its hard to be calm in times like this just do breathing exercises from your stomach not your chest. Inhale for 5..hold for 6 and exhale for 7. Do this at other times as well as when you feel a panic attack coming on. All your tests were normal so that is a good sign but as all of us that suffer Fixing It by Bev Aisbett. It has 3 books in it and it explains in simple easy to read terms what is a panic disorder and what happens and why. Its a great book and will get your mind off other things and calm it down and may help with racing and obsessive thoughts. Yes meds can take a bit to kick in so please give it some time and you should start to feel better. Also look into vitamin deficiences as well like vit D and B12 all linked to anxiety. Magesium spray at night spray in on your stomach right before you go to bed. It helps me sleep and I have good sleep now. I really hope you get so me relief soon. If you ever want to chat about anything please feel free to contact me. Take care ok.
albert81684 juffy28325
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same with you juffy,when i am at my 1st anxiety attack i am scared end up mental institution,my fear is when i think going crazy.but i am sure we have medication for that anxiety,so we should see phychatric.so that we can survive that feeling of going insane or end up mental institution.