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I am 34 years old and have suffered from anxiety for 8-9 years, although probably longer than that without realising it. I get anxious in mostly social situations such as being in groups of people, meetings at work, especially if I'm expected to speak in front others. It varies in levels of intensity and sometimes it can be just everyday interactions with people that triggers it. I work and manage to get through the day, but just kind of survive through it, leaving me dreading the next day. I have had times previously where I've overcome it for a while and felt confident but it has never lasted and keeps returning. Although my family are very supportive, I struggle to talk to them about it as I don't want to bother or worry them. I live on my own and have friends (mainly through work), but I don't really get out much and see them on a regular basis so mostly I am on my own. Most of my interests and hobbies are solitary such as running, playing guitar (or rather attempting to!). I am not taking any medication, I had been prescribed propranolol by the doctor but have only taken it a few times as I found that although it slows your heart rate down, and eases some of the physical symptoms, it doesn't help with the negative thoughts, which are the main problem. I have just started seeing a CBT coach and hopefully in the long run it will bear fruit, but at the moment I don't feel any better and the fact that I'm posting this (never done anything like this before), probably reflects how bad I'm feeling at the moment. I don't know if I have depression but obviously putting up with this does make me down a lot and sometimes I don't even know why I feel so on edge and emotional as there is nothing in particular I am worried about. I have to go on a training course through work this week, where I know I'm going to be expected to participate and speak in front of others etc. and this dominating my thoughts and making me feel this way now. I am just really posting this to see if others can relate to this and also offer any advice, such as if you think medication could help? Thanks.
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