i've been depressed for 4 days..what should i do??

Please calm yourself. I can assure you that you're baby will not be affected by you having facial spasms. Now let's assume you indeed have hemifacial spasms, you have to be diagnosed first.

Hemifacial spasms are normally caused by a nerve being being overlapped by an arterie(s). Very rare but it happens. Second, it is not life threatening, so calm yourself.

I know hemifacial spasms can be uncomfortable because they are embarrassing. I went through the same ordeal at work with family and with friends for about 3 years or a bit more. The Good news is that there is help, albeit not as easy as just taking a pill or getting massage.

My advice is to concentrate on your baby and laugh about the spasms, they are what they are at this point. I know my wife and I would laugh about it at home. She even gave me a nickname, "blinky".

I am sure you are surrounded by people who love you and they could care less about your spasms other than they will hope you get better.

If friends or coworkers ask, it's your decision to explain to them or not. I came out in the open and told the coworkers I hung out the most or those who asked, some I didn't tell and they didn't ask.

Finally, after you are fully recuperate from your baby and have your strength back, do research on a reputable neurosurgeon, someone who has experience in microvascular decompression surgery and make an appointment with him so you can be on your route to surgery and getting a permanent fix.

Botox is a waste of time in my opinion and only serves as a bandaid. And there are negative long term effects.

I went through surgery roughly a littler over a month ago and I woke up spasm free. Expect al recovery of about 4-6 weeks with the first week being totally out of it. So you will. Need someone to take care of the baby.

Good luck and don't be depressed about it, you have a beautiful baby coming to you hopefully the support of a father and family. In the grand scheme of things it's just a twitch of the muscles.

Hi Malia.  I think that Ruben has given very good advice below.  It can be frightening if you think you have Hemifacial Spasm, but you have something much more important to focus on, your baby.  This condition is NOT in any way life threatening either to you or your baby; it is just very annoying and tiring.  For now, it is probably best just to live with the condition and try to relax into it if you possibly can.  It may just go away after the birth of your baby (if it isn't Hemifacial Spasm), or, you can seek medical advice.  It is quite important to get an MRI scan once the birth/feeding is out of the way, just to confirm the diagnosis.  If you do have Hemifacial Spasm then Botox is usually what most people try first, not medicines.  Botox works well for many people but it is not a cure.  

But, first things first, and that's you and your pregnancy.  Hope that you will feel less depressed once you have a bit more knowledge about what's going on.  But, rest assured that you and babe will be fine even if this is Hemifacial Spasm.  If you continue to be worried then it's best to seek medical opinion, just to reassure yourself.  But, be aware that many doctors are very ignorant about Hemifacial Spasm.  Are you in the UK or some other place in the world?  If you are in the UK then some of us have had very good experience with some doctors, so please ask us for info.  If you are in the US then maybe consider joining the Facebook Group which is known as Hemifacial Spasm International Support Group.  There is a lot of knowledge there from all around the world.

Take good care and please rest easy if you possibly can.  

Hi Malia - Dont worry, relax, this will not hurt your baby in anyway. The worst thing you can do is to take any medication, that couldl hurt your baby.

Dont do anything yet, have your baby, get situated, and when you can get an MRI to verify that it is HFS. Having had 2 kids myself, I have found that just being pregnant can be stressful and cause crazy things to happen to your body. Once you deliver, let your body heal a few weeks, and then see if you are any better. Good Luck!