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I've been depressed for a long time and have been doing some stupid things.

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jimmy123
jimmy123

I am a 17 years old boy. I've been depressed for about two years . It wasn't that bad at first but now its totally hampering my daily life.The problem I'm having is very stupid and laughable, but please I'm very depressed and need some help. So even if its hard to take my question seriously just bare with me. I always have a very anxiety about stupid things. Like I always want to be the first one among my friends to watch a certain TV show or movie. Then while I'm watching a show, the thought of them watching the TV show before me suddenly comes to my mind. And then I stop everything I'm doing and then go to their house to ensure they aren't watching what I've been watching. I also always feel like they're hiding something from me and have been watching those shows and movies behind my back.

Couple of years ago I didn't care about these things. I used to enjoy life and not care about what others were doing. Now my thoughts are so jumbled up that I can't think straight. I'm beginning to think I'm superior to them just because I'm watching the movies and shows before them and anytime the thought pops in my head about my friends I run to their houses. I feel like my whole life has been destroyed. I feel like I'll be stuck with this feeling forever. I've stopped watching the shows and movies that my friends have already watched and now I search for some unknown and old movies to watch just because they haven't watched them. I've started to hate the shows and movies that they watch just because they've watched it. I would be fine if I just hated the shows and movies but I feel bad just thinking about them watching my favorite TV shows and movies and how I'll eventually come to hate my favorites too. I know none of the things I said make sense and I know that too but I can't stop feeling depressed about stupid things like this. And now I've stayed to hate myself too because of this feeling. Can anybody tell me how to solve this problem?

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  • Aidan4224
    Aidan4224 jimmy123

    Posted

    Hi, you need to ammend your thought process. Try saying to yourself, 'if that's is all I have to worry about in life then I have cracked it'. Remind yourself that you are not that bad off. Remind yourself there a people out there in lot worse situations...I presume you physically fit and healthy so why not do sports. You sound very competitive. But competitive in the wrong area. Who cares about who's watching what first?. Take your passion and harness it into a more positive outcome like a hobby uncommon hobbies or sports..... Stay strong and positive, it will help....
  • gillian81509
    gillian81509 jimmy123

    Posted

    Hi Jimmy

    aiden answer is v good you are in a vicious circle and need to jump off

    instead of putting all your excess energy into into film watching turn it into doing something bigger better and something they will have to work hard at beating you but something more constructive than film watching

    your competiveness needs an outlet do you like sport look at the full range including archery climbing cycling

    I think you Have so much excess energy that it's releasing via ocd/ paranoia and you really don't want to let them take over

    read what you've written and think what am I doing stressing about films when I have a life ahead with far more ex citing things

  • tracy20257
    tracy20257 jimmy123

    Posted

    Hi Jimmy. Sorry you are feeling so anxious. Any irrational or obsessive thoughts we have are almost always caused by negative thought processes and beliefs we have about ourselves. The best help for this is CBT. Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. It's very good for helping you to reframe your thoughts and create a habit of healthy positive thinking. Ask your doctor for a referral to a CBT therapist. In the meantime check out the COMPANION APP on this website. It's like having a mini CBT session whenever you need it. I find it very helpful when I'm having anxious thoughts. Best of luck and take care of yourself. X
  • Aspinan
    Aspinan jimmy123

    Posted

    Hi Jimmy, good advise given above.

    Obsessive thoughts and pre occupations are a symptom of depression and anxiety which if you visit your GP and discuss will put you on the road to recovery ideally through CBT.

    in the mean time when this thought pops into your head challenge the thought and say to yourself "what if they are watching before me", challenge yourself that your not going to run round and see if they are watching, ask yourself what the worst thing could happen if they have?

    GIVE YOURSELF PETMISSION TO WATCH WHWTEVER YOU WANT WHENEVER YOU WANT.

    N 

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