I've been on citalopram for 6/7 weeks. Thinking of giving up
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As my previous post said I've been on this medication for about 40/50 days, 6/7 weeks. It's slightly improved my anxiety but I don't know if that's actually down to citalopram. My doctor didn't say much about taking the medication, just that I should take it and that I have anxiety and depression. I've not been back since I started to take it. I don't feel as though it is doing anything for me. I seem to be becoming reliant on it, I forgot to take my tablets to college so had to take it about 5 hours later than usual, I felt ill and panicked a lot more than usual. I still feel awful in myself and the bad thoughts are still there, I don't want to go see my useless doctor again so I'm thinking of just stopping taking it, the withdrawal symptoms if I do get them can't be worse than the side effects. Has anyone done this before or has anyone got any advice? It would be much appreciated, I can't talk to anyone really about this and I hate the doctors now so doing everything possible to not go back. I feel like I'm wasting my time on these tablets. I've given up hope in recovering
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helen40275 0897
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You're not alone in feeling the way you do so don't despair.
Stay strong
gillian20097 0897
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Many years ago I had a full mental breakdown. I was put in a lodge for people with mental illness and I will be honest with you,I thought I'd be there for life I was so bad.
I never thought I'd get better,thought them thoughts and feelings would never leave me and swore that there was something more to my illness than depression/anxiety. Week 7/8 on Citalopram and I was still as far down as I could possibly be,although other people said they could see me improving,my mind was saying different.
Week 9 came and it was like somebody flicked a switch in my head. I woke one morning,went downstairs to the communal dining area and told the nurses I was ready to go home. They couldn't believe it. I don't know what happened or how but I woke that morning and knew I was gonna be ok.
I left that day with full make up and my hair done. Spent that night with my son, a little nervy but mostly thinking this was too good to be true...I was going to come crashing down. The night after I went out with friends without the slightest thought of what happened over the last 9 weeks.....The turn around was as quick as that. From me thinking I was never going to be well again,to me feeling stronger than ever.
This episode is the first I've had since that time but I don't think this would of happened if it weren't for a accident I had in work. I've had my first good day today and I'm feeling that feeling of ot being too good to be true again..but fingers crossed,this is the start of my way back up.
Please don't give up Hun because it could be just round the corner for you xx
Richardt gillian20097
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helen40275 0897
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Just to go back to something I experienced, 10mg just relaxed me and helped me sleep better. My GP explained this was only a sedative dosage and woukdn't work on the depression. Don't be scared to up the dosage if it helps.
I take 30mmg which mostly keeps me on an even keel. It isn't a cure though, it can be part of a package of coping mechanisms, you need to find what works for you.
I still have some bad days but it doesn't frighten me so much now, I know that it willpass and I won't spiral again.
Good luck with your journey
renfrew helen40275
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katecogs 0897
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6/7 weeks is still quite early days. I'd suggest you keep on with them and if no change after 3 months then go see a different doctor and discuss a different SSRI. There's many different types and all are tailored to suit different people. But carry on for now ........ you will get there eventually, and this site is for support.
Your doctor should be more supportive and knowledgeable about this condition and the medication. You can see a different doctor at your surgery, it's your right. It's a very slow process recovering, especially when the effects of depression are so unbearable, but believe me, you will get better!
Good luck, and keep in touch here for support x
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Luke7580 0897
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gillian20097 Luke7580
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We are all at different points in recovery and you are recovering. If you wasn't then you wouldn't of had a single moment of good while on medication.
We think these thoughts will never leave us but they will. We only recognise the times that they are there because they cause so much distress. We don't even realise that sometimes they are not there. So for me it's gone from 24/7 obsessive thought to probably half and half. That means that they are slowly diminishing and will continue to diminish until they are no more.
Keep your chin up mate. Your moving forward xx
Luke7580 gillian20097
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