I've been real stressed out lately

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For whatever reason I no longer possess any memory. I can't remember yesterday, the day before that, or even the weeks prior to that. I couldn't even tell you what I did 4-5 hours ago. My life and all my memories have all the sudden slipped away from me. My childhood, teens, all of it is gone. I've also been having problems with identity. I am not the person I see in the mirror, I do not exist. I am whoever occupies my mind at that particular moment. I haven't left my room in almost 2 weeks, and I've been barely eating, showering or brushing my teeth. Not that I don't want to, I just somehow keep forgetting. Lately I've had some strange hallucinations, but I don't want to discuss that here other than the visual static that seems to come out of nowhere. I see bright colors and rainbow colored static everywhere. It's like I have the vision of the terminator or a robot. My surroundings also appear to be shape-shifting bending and distorting, but only when I actually pay attention to my surroundings. Everything also changes it color. My computer screen will sometimes turn red or pink, but I'm pretty sure that's eye fatigue? The walls will sometimes turn a bright blue. Could that also be eye fatigue? I also see bright neon helixes and eyes all over the room, but whenever this happens I'm tired so it could be because of that. I'm not sure what is causing this, but I am certain the government plays a pivotal role. I know for a fact that the government has been trying to turn me into a woman for a very long time. I am not a woman! I am a male, and I've been resisting it but it seems to make the cognitive decay worse.

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    I am sorry but you need to see a medical professional ASAP, I'm not saying that their is anything physically wrong but you and anyone on here can possibly diagnose you on here.

    You could possibly be completely sleep deprived.

    How long are you staying on your computer each day.

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      I can't really tell since my ability to remember anything has been completely destroy. I am not looking for a diagnosis, which is why I abstain from getting any sort of counselling. I'm only look for a prognosis or something I can do as treatment by myself.

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    Um.. how is the Government trying to turn you into a woman?  And why?  You seem to be living in an alternative reality and you need to seek help immediately.  Is there a relative or a friend you can call?  If not how about your doctor or mental health specialist?  x
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      I expected people to call me crazy. I don't think I'm living in an alternate reality. That thought has never even occurred to me before. All my relatives are evil and I have no friends. I don't plan on seeing a doctor or mental health specialist because I don't feel like I could bear talking about how I feel in person. Talking about how you feel is a pretty bad mistake.

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    Eyes on the walls and pink computers.....maybe time for professional help. I don't think any of us

    have that kind of experience.

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    I don’t believe you 

    I’m sorry I think this is unreal 

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       I don't know why but I find it comforting that someone doesn't believe me. I don't want to believe this either, everyday I wish that it isn't real. Who would ever want to live in the world I live in? It's literally a nightmare and it prevents me from sleeping. I'm so tired and I have the huge bags under my eyes. When I go out in public I look like a zombie and people can see that I am visibly very uncomfortable an depressed. Which is why I credit the hallucinations to eye fatigue, with an exception of the static and bending and distorting of my environment, I think that's just caused my stress that the government has caused me. None of it is really concerning to me except for the fact that the government has been hurting me pretty hard lately. Honestly I have no idea which thoughts are mine, and if any of my thoughts are mine at all? The government isn't just physical, they go into the next dimension which is how they're able to make me feel severe pain as some kind of torture. They've also been depriving me of sleep to increase the severity and length of my hurting. I swear I won't rest until every government institution is gone. They are literally going to destroy the world.

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      Oh I believe you are experienceing these thoughts alright but thats all they are hallucinations and thoughts. You can blame it all on eye fatigue all you like and hope thats it but sorry thats not it. Prodigious is right on the money. If you don't go to a physiatrist and get some help they will make you

      involuntary and force you in hospital and that will be on record your whole life. When you start talking

      about the government being after you and all thats not a good sign. Your just an average joe like

      the rest of us why would they waste time or money coming after you. Think about it. They have bigger

      fish to fry. So relax nobody is out to get you. Just the people in white coats if you keep talking like this.

      The world is in Gods hands so not to worry about that either.

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    Hi I understand these delusions are very real for you and I don't know how to get through to you that they are not actually true. You are experiencing altered states of consciousness which are part of your illness.  I think soon that unless you voluntarily get some help you will be forced into it. 

    We can't really help you on here as it is only an online site and you desperately need professional help. I know this won't get through to you but that's what I think.  I do wish you the best though.  x

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