I’ve just been diagnosed...In shock still
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I apologize in advance for the length of this. So I was officially diagnosed yesterday with HSV 2 after having painful sores down there and burning while peeing. I believe my bf gave it to me, I have not been sexually active or intimate with anybody other than him for nearly a year. He has no symptoms what so ever, he did admit to stepping out on me but he swears he wore a condom. After doing so much research this past week, I have learned condoms don’t nessecarily protect you from getting it . He’s kind of being a bit ignorant about the situation and reacted like a guilty person but nonetheless he still offered support and isn’t blaming me or acting like a a**hole about it. I’m still in shock and denial. I still care about him so much and I hate myself for it because I feel like this is the biggest warning sign the universe could of given me that he was no good for me. I feel like if we stay together we will grow to resent each other or feel obligated to stay together because of our status. That’s not the kind of love I want to have but I also fear being alone and nobody wanting me because of this . He is getting tested this week he said, I told him he needs to know that blood tests can be inaccurate being that he has no symptoms (correct me if I’m wrong) is there any way for him to know for sure if he has it?
Anyway, I guess what I am experiencing is my first outbreak, being that I never experienced ANYTHING like that in the past. I never even had as much as a yeast infection. This outbreak was 5 days of straight agony. The sores have gone away with the exception of a few stubborn ones inside the vagina lips. It no longer burns when I pee. I have been taking the anti virals and I must say they cleared it up pretty quickly . For that I am greatful!! However I am experiencing level 10 constipation. I took some stool softeners so hopefully they help. All day at work I felt like I had to poop, but refused to come out and was in excruciating pain. I’m feeling weak and my body gets numb and tingly from being on my feet all day at work, which is something I’ve never felt in the past . I guess these are side effects of the anti virals.
I never thought this would happen to me, i’m sure a lot of people can relate. Like many others I was misinformed about herpes. I always thought that you catch it through kissing and cold sores I didn’t even know there was different types. I was definitely judgmental about it. But I realized our society teaches us to have a stigma towards it. This website has help me so much. I learned so much information more than I even learned at the doctors office because they were not very helpful.At the end of the day I was very irresponsible. He and I were irresponsible possible and we both knew the risks.
I’m here to talk to anybody about my experience thus far. I’m still coming to grips with things and I don’t know when I’ll ever feel better but accepting and admitting it is the first step. I feel like taking on here has helped so much , I been in a depressive state but am realizing like goes on. Please feel free to recommend any vitamins, treatments , diets etc so that I can keep my breakouts at bay. I never wanna go through this again !!! Also how can I have a normal sex life one day . I used to love sex and need it constantly . Now I can’t even imagine having sex after all this...
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Skye03680 newyorkbby_
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I just wanna hug you through the phone! Just like you I have been recently diagnosed about six weeks ago. From the research I’ve done my first outbreak was very mild compared to some. I had no flu like symptoms I never got any blisters, but I did develop the canker like sores that hurt so bad. Luckily I only had two. So right now like you I am taking two antivirals a day I’m also taking lysine twice a day I’m taking an elderberry supplement twice a day and I’m also taking B6 twice a day. I dealt with a Lotta nerve pain from my outbreak and I read online that vitamin B helps heal nerves. I exercise regularly and try not to eat a bunch of junk food already. So I do have that going for me.I don’t ever want to experience another outbreak either so I’m bombarding myself with vitamins medication right practices to try to keep it at bay.
like you when I was first diagnosed I thought my life was over. I was extremely depressed but I’m starting to realize as well life does go on. I’m not gonna let a skin condition take away the things that make me me. and like you I was also extremely misinformed about herpes. this forum and several other forms have been so helpful. There’s actually a really strong herpes support group on Tumblr as well.
just know that we are all in this together. Life will get better.. i’m not going to actively see anyone until probably December because I read online that the first three months of your diagnosis and is when you are highly contagious and more likely to spread even with no symptoms.I am worried about disclosing for the first time but we’ll cross that bridge when I come to it
newyorkbby_ Skye03680
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Thank you so much, I wish I can hug all of you guys. This has been such an insane week for me, I’m having such a hard time wrapping my head around this. The worst part is me and my boyfriend were having issues as it is and we kind of agreed to some space right before all this went down and he was just on some I want to focus on myself right now and I was like OK cool I want to focus on myself too. But in the back my mind I can’t help but feel like he’s lying. He’s usually a honest person but it usually takes me confronting him to get the honesty out of him. He told me he’s going to get tested today and I know it’s going to be a few days before he gets his results back. He was supposed to have been gone but he had to work and he couldn’t get an appointment so now he’s finally going. My biggest fear is that they tell him he doesn’t have it and I have it and he’s looking at me like I did something wrong. I didn’t even step out on him not even one time. The timing of everything is so weird. Who knows maybe I could’ve had this in my system for a long time and just now I’m having an outbreak. That’s the thing about stupid herpes , you can’t even really know for a fact how you got it or when you got it. But with that being said since he’s the only person I’ve been having relations with for a year unprotected chances are he has it right?
breann95683 newyorkbby_
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I just wish I could hug you! I'm so sorry youre going through this. I believe I'm going through a break out, but it may not be my first. I have never been diagnosed even though I've been tested.. after I found out my ex was cheating on me for 3 years I had gotten tested and everything came back negative except for HPV. its still the same since I last got tested (about a year ago during my routine pregnancy std test), nothing but HPV. but I get a bump every few months in almost the same spot, just one, that hurts and itches, burns when I pee, and then heals. I always assumed it was an ingrown hair. Except now I dont know, as this time its not just one bump, its 4, and theyre so painful I can hardly walk and don't even want to go pee. I'm feeling so down. I'm not able to be seen right away due to some insurance issues so I'm freaking out thinking it may be herpes, my fiance will definitely think I stepped out on him, or react like a jerk some way. Idk what to do.. anyway that is my ramble.
I have read that a bath with drops of tea tree oil help but ive never been a big oil person. I have read that Lysine vitamins will help your immune system prevent break outs! So far I've just been taking tylenol and getting in a hot shower twice a day. From what I understand, hot water can help promote healing them. BEST of luck to you. This is miserable im sorry you have to go through it.
newyorkbby_ breann95683
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Thank you so much for the support and I’m here if you ever need to talk you can message me. I dealt with a similar situation as far as insurance. But I was in so much agony and pain that I ended up going to the emergency room. They have a sliding scale so I would say just go and work out the kinks with your insurance later on. They will bill you and then you just have to make sure you’re on top of it and give the bill to your insurance later on so that they could cover the expenses. Trust me I was worried to my insurance does not kick in until October and I didn’t want to go to the hospital for that reason but im glad i went
sam35005 newyorkbby_
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heyyy thank you for sharing your story. Im sorry for you that and how you caught this horrible virus. What most shocked me were all the co-symptoms that came along with the infection... headache, constant low fevers and also constipation so bad that I also tore open from behind 😢 what a nightmare. then I suddenly experienced "muscle weakness", numbness and tingly feelings in my body and an itchy groin all day. this is the neurological effect of the virus and only worsened after quitting medicins. hope it will resolve for you soon! goodluck and keep us posted..!
newyorkbby_ sam35005
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Thank you so much!!!! :::hugs::: I’m not gonna lie, six days ago I wanted to die!!!!! and I was in so much agony. But today I’m feeling so much better ,it’s insane. with the exception of some stubborn itching down there and some yellow greenish discharge with a weird smell...Sorry if that’s TMI for some of you but this is a herpes message board so whatever. Anyway, I pretty much feel back to my old self. as much as one can possibly be after going through this. Does anybody know what I can take for the discharge to go away, I was thinking maybe probiotics?