I've no one and I'm all alone.

Sorry for all the typos

I know what you are saying to be true. I have depression. I didn't know it until I was about 30.I am aware that a person can be born with depression. I am also alone with nobody else to really talk to. I deal with it by myself mostly. A lot of the time I don't want to get out of bed. So I do understand what you are saying. If you like to west can talk.

Become your own parent. Become your own best friend. Become your own brother or sister. Start loving yourself and mentally block your parents or anyone else who is causing you more pain instead of helping. Work hard, every single day, every single hour, every single minute and second, to get your own life in order. Study hard, find a job, find a second job. Find something in your life that you want, not what they want. It doesn't matter what they say, it doesn't matter what you believe or don't believe. Just do it. Don't even think about it in terms of overthinking everything. Just come up with a plan and stick with it. Many days are going to be impossible and you won't be perfect 100% of the time, but try as hard as you can. When I feel like everything is hopeless, I get out of the house and go for a run until I can't breath. Watch "Motivational" videos on YouTube. They really help you get inspired.  

Very true we need to be around people who are understanding. I know that we can't do it on our own.self help will work for a while. I have been to about a dozen doctors and got the same results. I wish I could start a new program that would benefit us.Doctors want to keep us on medication so they can make money. There are not enough programs out there to help people who have depression. The government wants to push it under the rug and denie money for the programs needed. In some cases they refuse to see that there is a real problem.

Hey there, I couldn't help but feeling sad reading your post. I really feel for you. I'm sorry things are difficult for you at the moment. I think you do need a "sympathetic ear". You are not a pathetic poser. I think when you open up to people it makes you vulnerable. You feel like a "loser" because you are trying so hard to put on a strong front and somehow see telling others how you feel as a weakness. You need to understand, it's not! It's OK not to feel strong sometimes. You can't help how you feel. So sometimes you let your guard down- so what! Believe me when I say and I'm speaking from personal experience, that keeping things bottled up can cause more psychological damage. I'm sorry you are not getting the empathy you need from your parents. I could tell them calmly, "I can over - hear what you are saying and find it really upsetting and unhelpful. You need to surround yourself by people who are genuine and who do not dismiss or disbelief what you are experiencing and feeling. I'm here for you anytime sweetheart, Donna xxx

Your welcome. I am glad to be apart of this conversation. I hope that I have been able to help you in some way. You can talk to me about anything at anytime.