I want to dead!!!!!!!!

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Hey guys.

I have been depressed in a long time and I just got help from my doctors because I try last week to kill myself. When I was younger I grow up in a domasic household where I daily got abuse by my father and seeing him abuse my mother and handicap brother. I have had panic anxiety disorder and health anxiety disorder. My mother can speak the language of the country because she has been isolated for my years. So I am responsible for every single thing in my household. I have zero friends and no boyfriend. I can not se myself happy. I don't eat anything nor do I sleep well. I always get weird dreams where I am killing somebody. I go to school but I always get a panic attacks.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I my crazy by the way my doctors has given me anti depressants but I am try ones and I got a side of effect that I am afraid of

Please help me!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so lost right now

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    Hanna go to your local hospital they will help and you will be out of that situation. Xx
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    Hi Hanna08404,

    Please don't try and kill yourself, you sound severely depressed. I was in the same position felt like life not worth living. I'm taking anti depressants and they are helping a little. Also I am trying CBT. Have you asked for help regarding therapy. I think this will benefit you. I have severe health anxiety and have tried to take my life. Please get some help. There are people that love and care for you.

    I pray for you

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    Hi Hanna,

    Firstly, sorry to hear your story and that things got bad last week.

    What's the side effect? It may go after a while of being on it. I been on meds 20 yrs for depression, anxiety and psychosis.

    Try to give meds a try cos if you can overcome the side effects it may be best thing for you.

    I hope ur dad isn't around anymore. Must be hard being in charge of household. Do u get any support from friends family or gov?

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      No I hardly get any help from people. I have no friends that really are there for me. I just what to despair. My father is still in my life but he doesn't live with me.

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      I really think u should get ur doctor to find you a counsellor or group where you would feel safe to share your experiences or meet people in similar situation.

      I'm in a group therapy at moment and it's v gud for me.

      Hope this helps.

      Feel free to msge me

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    Your story makes me so sad. I have also had depression and anxiety and know how difficult it it. Please try your medication. I went on antidepressant for some time and it should help you. Know that we care. Message us anytime you feel alone and can't cope. God loves you deeply and we love you too. You are not alone. You sound like a wonderful person who needs help. Reach for it. Call your family doctor. Ask for mental health therapy. It helps to talk about it sometimes.

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