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I want to end it.

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JaredC
JaredC

I want to die. I'm tired of laying in bed trying to convince myself i have a reason to live. I don't wan't anything but to die. Nothing interests me and there's no way that i'll ever do anything with my life. I haven't spoken to anybody in the last week and a half and i think all my friends are sick of me blowing them off and the fact that i'm so f***king miserable all the time. I've slept 8 hours in the last four days simply because my body won't fall asleep.and i ache all over. I get the worst cramps that eventually turn into migranes and i'm just done with it. I won't ever be anything more than a retail associate. There's enough painkillers in house that i can just overdose and call it quits. I bet nobody will even notice or let alone care.

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  • john06194
    john06194 JaredC

    Posted

    being a retail associate sounds a good job im 2 days into a cold turkey off drugs i feel like killing myself but whats the point we die anyway if i cud swap i wud then u would top yourself lol wer you from
  • john06194
    john06194 JaredC

    Posted

    loads my friends have topped themselves its just seems the easyway out evan tho it takes guts u never no u mite win lotto next week our paul my bruv used to never talk to me from wen he was16 to 20 1 year between us he used to stay in his bedroom now we inseperable he says he was depressed 
  • somedramatickid
    somedramatickid JaredC

    Posted

    Think about it this way. Nobody's ever known what it's like to OD until they've done it. And then they scream. You don't want that. And, like john is saying, stuff might happen soon. You might get a new job. You might inherit some stuff. Just carry on.
  • somedramatickid
    somedramatickid JaredC

    Posted

    Think about it this way. Nobody's ever known what it's like to OD until they've done it. And then they scream. You don't want that. And, like john is saying, stuff might happen soon. You might get a new job. You might inherit some stuff. Just carry on.
    • somedramatickid
      somedramatickid

      Posted

      Whoops, double post. and also, get. some. help. Some calm, rational words could help you out of this.
  • jennx
    jennx JaredC

    Posted

    Hang in there Jared.  Ive felt like this many times but you just got to keep reaching out for help.  I know its the last thing you feel like doing but you have to.  There is light at the end of the tunnel if you just keep searching for the right doctor/meds/therapy.  Just dont stay silent.  Scream and yell at someone to help you.  Walk into an emergency department and demand help (I did that once and it started a ball rolling that saved my life).  Do whatever it takes Jared.  If you can survive this horrible illness I promise you you will have the best life smile
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