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My whole life I have kept my anger, my sadness to myself. Ever since I was young I always knew not to let my anger out, because I knew my anger was different. People have bad days, and vent out, but I've never given in to that. Every time I feel my anger coming I feel like if I let it out someone or something is waiting for me to let go. I always felt like someone wants me to let it out, I always feel the presense of a person waiting to take over. So I can never give in to my anger. So last night, something personal happened to me, and I was trying to cope but couldn't. I wanted to scream, and keep screaming throw everything, pull out my hair, cut it ( I have very long hair) and wanted to let go, and curl up in a ball, and again in my mind I saw a shadow of a person waiting for me. They walked towards me, I looked up, and they came towards me. That was the end of it.
I tried going to bed to sleep, and I felt the pressense of that person staring at me from behind my back. So I stayed up until I couldn't feel that person anymore. I don't know what's wrong with me, all I know is that once I let go, I won't be the same...
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