I wish I was dead

I have been where you are. I understand what you are going through. Every day I feel the same way. I have tried a few times to end my life. There's a lot of things that I have tried to help myself. Therapy and medication help some. Finding people who have depression is a good way to be helped. Because people who suffer from being bipolar and depression understand and can relate to you. You need to be around people. Don't stay alone with your thoughts. You need to be around people who are understanding. Get a hobby. Set goals for yourself. I realize that you might not have friends who understand. Your family members not talking to you about it. They don't understand what you are going through. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.. You need to seek it out. I don't know where you live. But there are programs that can help you.

Hi lindsay75394 - in the human condition we establish a groove for ourselves - how we fit in and function in the world. Soon that groove can become a rut we get stuck inside digging ourselves in deeper. The rut becomes a gorge and the edges that used to guide us are now walls that imprison us. Change is difficult because we have become indoctrinated with world expectation, our self-talk and the coping mechanisms we developed in order to function. Tools we use on a particular issues become blunt and less effective. Change means the birth of new ways to live, but that birth requires the death of the old ways. At the moment you are in a position where you have very little, but that land you look out on is not a desolate waste of space, it's a blank canvass, waiting for you to create something new for you, and, in turn, the world. It's hard work, changing everything, developing new ways of contemplating life - it's hard work because it's worth the effort. First thing is your health - are you going to keep the baby? If so, you will have to arrange the future that will hold both of you. If not, then you need to get that dealt with and utilize any counselling that comes with it. How about joining a group that deals with similar issues? You will meet others who will not reject you because they understand where you are coming from. The first thing is to plan what you are going to do and then do it. Life is difficult, the challenge is to stretch to understand ourselves, those around us, grapple with the human struggle and ultimately survive. Giving up means throwing away that opportunity and no-one can say exactly what that will mean in your future. 

 

Oh Lindsay I feel for you. What a horrible time you are having. I listen to Joel Osteen an America minister. I am not very religious but he does give me hope. Maybe google him and see if it helps. Can you focus on the baby? It really is a gift even if right now you don’t know how you can manage. I wish I could say something that would magically change everything. My life is also difficult, right now I am looking for positives and trying hard to believe that a miracle is about to happen. Hugs to you. Please hang on for at least today.