If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything....
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So I'm not doing. Every time I open my mouth, I find myself moaning. I even annoy myself.
About 7/8 years ago, I had a breakdown. I was pulled out the estuary by the police. There was a lot of reasons why, but my husband seemed to take the brunt of it.
I had counceling for about two and a half years, and have been reasonably ok for the last 4/5 years.
Now I find myself getting depressed again, and can't seem to say anything nice about anything.
My husband is now starting to distance himself - physically, (he's going out a lot), and emotionally. He says he can't/doesn't want to go through it again. I think he thinks I'm doing it on purpose.
How can I get him to see, all I need is a cuddle or even just to sit next to me, would help?
I've called in work sick today - I just can't cope with people...
I've started meds again, but hate taking them. I think I'd sooner feel angry than nothing at all. This is how it presents itself.
I know this is a complete ramble, but I'm typing as the thoughts come up.
I'm having nightmares.They are very vivid, and disturb me for days afterwards.
I hate it, and I'm finding it difficult to kick myself up the arse and get to grips with it. I just want to crawl under a rock.
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AnonymousWoman liz16012
Posted
Perhaps you should talk to your doc about this.
Also, I think you need to tell your husband that you don't want to lose him and that him distancing himself from you only makes you worse. Make sure he understands that you love him and need him. Hopefully that will help him understand.
I hope things get better for you. Try to stay active even if you are staying at home and keep in touch with us
anonymousgirl x
liz16012 AnonymousWoman
Posted
I've always had peculiar dreams, antidepressants or not. I'm on amitriptaline. I started taking it for two slipped discs and a hip impingement.
I think the trouble is, having sat Hubby down and talked, I'm too damn active! I work full time, see to my horse twice a day, come home and mend others horse rugs, and try to run a house as well...
The last time I had a week off work, I spent four days doing housework, catching up with the stuff that I hadn't had time to do. (Think there may be a bit of OCD there, too)
I'm knackered, but I can't sit still...
BUT, we had a small breakthrough tonight - I've started to laugh a to myself again - something I haven't managd to do in a while
AnonymousWoman liz16012
Posted
Great news though, keep up the good work!
anonymousgirl x
norman42567 liz16012
Posted
Looks like a great opportunity to build upon things now. You sound busy, maybe a good idea to check with your hubby if your spending enough quality time with him?? Perhaps do something special for him soon?
Take care
Norm