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So I'm not doing. Every time I open my mouth, I find myself moaning. I even annoy myself.
About 7/8 years ago, I had a breakdown. I was pulled out the estuary by the police. There was a lot of reasons why, but my husband seemed to take the brunt of it.
I had counceling for about two and a half years, and have been reasonably ok for the last 4/5 years.
Now I find myself getting depressed again, and can't seem to say anything nice about anything.
My husband is now starting to distance himself - physically, (he's going out a lot), and emotionally. He says he can't/doesn't want to go through it again. I think he thinks I'm doing it on purpose.
How can I get him to see, all I need is a cuddle or even just to sit next to me, would help?
I've called in work sick today - I just can't cope with people...
I've started meds again, but hate taking them. I think I'd sooner feel angry than nothing at all. This is how it presents itself.
I know this is a complete ramble, but I'm typing as the thoughts come up.
I'm having nightmares.They are very vivid, and disturb me for days afterwards.
I hate it, and I'm finding it difficult to kick myself up the arse and get to grips with it. I just want to crawl under a rock.
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