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Not a great title but its exactly true.
I am and have been smoking 10+ spliffs per day for atleast 7 or 8 years, and started 4 or 5 years before that.
In 2017 I quite weed for good and tobacco and went onto vaping, i was doing well, and then found alcohol (which I never really touched before) and got addicted to that.
The whole while I was addicted to sex as well and I have a partner, so I cheated a few times, but told her and gained her trust back each time, UNTILL I started drinking.
You see, from 18 I was a gambler. I got hooked fast cause I won money fast when I was young and it funded my habits for a short period, and then I went onto loans ect and ruined my financial history and now Im 23 with 15k in debt from loans and still living with my depressive mother.
After I started drinking 1ltr + of whiskey per day (seriously) i started getting really crazy, doing mad things, telling everyone i was going to kill myself, cutting myself hundreds of times, and even once actually stabbing myself and going to ane, at which point I quit the alcohol andtold everyone I would go back to weed because atleast I didnt self harm then and try and kill myself, and everyyone agreed... From there I quit alcohol for about 2 weeks, then started secretely drinking, then told people slowly and earned some trust back, but they were still very worried, and then I started going back up to a litre a day and actually gambled 4000+ of my gfs money and 6000+ of my dads money, until the point where hes given up on me, and she is getting very annoyed ( yes im lucky she hasnt left me yet).
So, recently, I agreed to switch to beer because its so much weaker, and its been helping, but over the last 2 months ive been drinking 4-5 beers before work, 2 beers on lunch, and then maybe 5+ beers after work, and at the same time smoking x number of spliffs. I try and control myself but I just cant do it, i really, really really, really, really cant. I have tried so many times. I apply to the nhs for help and by the time letters come, I just discard them because im not in the frame of mind anymore. Now I dont know what to do because everyone is loosing so much hope with me and I just dont have anyone to help me. I was sure this month I could atleast not gamble but do the drinking and weed but I endded up gambling and now ive spent my gfs 1300 paycheck again and am still sponging alcohol money from her. Be as disgusted at me as you may but I jsut want to know if anyone has ever had so many addictions at once and managed to come out of it, and how did you do it?
I dont want to hear "i quit alcohol ect ect" or "I quit weed ect ect". My family gives me all that and my friends do to. I want to hear from someone with mental health xperience or experience of this many addictions at once.
I dont want to sound rude there but im clearly intoxicated as always and looking for a bit more motivation to stop.
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