Im here to be a voice of "it gets better"

Hey, so I'm 23 years old, and I have dealt with anxiety for 2 years. Now don't get me wrong, it's horrible. The way your heart pounds in your ears, get anxiety induced vertigo, living in fear constantly, cold sweats, etc. I had my first panic attack when I was driving. I had a cup of coffee and started feeling like I was dying. I had nobody to help me and I felt alone. Ever since that day my life was hell. I couldn't drive any more, therefore I had to quit my job. I didn't leave my house for 2 months and lost 20 pounds because I couldn't stomach food. It was living hell. I felt like I was going crazy, literally. Now i know I was experiencing derealization and depersonalization. It's common with people who have anxiety, so don't get scared. I was never suicidal, but at that point I wanted to off myself. I didn't want to, but I felt like it was something I had to do. I decided to seek professional help. I attended therapy and they started me on medication. I opted out the medication rout because I felt like it gave me more anxiety. I kept reminiscing about how easy life was before my panic attacks and cried all the time because I just couldn't handle it any more. It was a long road to recovery, and I still deal with it everyday. I will say this, I am a stronger person because of this. So if anybody is reading this, I just want to let you know that it doesn't get better if you don't actively work through it. You have to put in effort, and it's going to be tiring, but it's worth it in the end to be able to have a moment on breath. You got this!!!!!!!!!!!

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