Im just tired of everything
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I am tired of life and my daily duties. Every day makes me exhausted. I am overwhelmed with anxiety and stress, while feeling drained from emotions. Almost nothing makes me happy, if I feel joy it is really a short moment. I envy people who can be happy living, I have the impression that I do not fit into this world, society. I am afraid of people and interactions, I do not isolate myself, but every contact with another person tires me mentally. I have the impression that I am a burden on others. I want to seek help because I don't want to feel so tragic, but it probably doesn't make sense. I wrote a message to the center, where they provide psychological help for free, but so far they have not responded to my message. I confided in my friends, but I don't want to tire them with my every problem because they have their own. I do not want to live, the vision of continuous life scares me, every night I beg for death in my sleep, because I am definitely not going to kill myself, I would not be able to. Everything looks fine on the surface, but a lot of bad things are going on in my head, I don't want to feel so hopeless.
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sam18386 malwina71458
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hi malwina, i don't quite no what to say. i have no magic wand but know this: something deep down has told you to feel like this, an event of some description! i feel so sad for how terrible you feel. make people know how bad you feel. i don't know what country you live in but somebody needs to listen to you property! find a doctor/friend or counsellor who can listen to you. in England we have different sorts of support for mental health support. you feel so bad because of what has happened to you.i think if you didn't want to be around you wouldn't write on here and reach, which is brave in itself!if the people you contacted have not offered you help, ring and ask why. i wish you luck! you've done the hard bit you need to just carry on and keep talking..... ring back the people you rang and ask why they haven't answered you.
malwina71458 sam18386
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Thanks for your words, tbh i dont know why im feeling like this, my life was mostly peaceful, maybe is just my mind that is broken. Im writing here cause i want to feel understood. I don't want to be alive but I feel like I have no other choice so I just wanted to find people who know what I mean. I hope one day I will find the strength to find help.
jan34534 malwina71458
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be persistent and call back the free counseling. Call them until somebody answers and make an appointment right away.
Be a fighter for yourself.! I had to learn that on my own because as much as other people may love and care about me, it still comes down to the fact that I have to take the steps myself. Nobody can do it for me.
I know what you mean about everything looking good on the surface. I feel that way so much! Nobody can see the struggles that we go through. But we have to take care of ourselves.
There is hope. There is peace of mind. One day at a time.
remember that persistence gets results!
I had to stop wallowing in self-pity. now every morning I ask myself what can I do for myself today?
what changes can I make for myself?
I do speak to a counselor once a week virtually which is very helpful! That is what I am wishing for you! Work at it every single day until you get support from a counselor. then keep going with the appointments even when you start feeling better.. yes, you can do this!❤
malwina71458 jan34534
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Thanks for your words. I try to fight every day, I just do it on really low battery. I know I have to eat, work and do basic things. Only it makes me lose my energy. The worst thing is that I can't communicate exactly what is happening to me because I can't name it myself. I tried to talk to my friend, but I have told him so many times about my thoughts that it has a negative effect on him, he told me that "he wants to vomit because of what I say". My boyfriend, due to my negative mood and manner, says that I don't love him anymore, when I try to explain to him what is going on in my head, he gets angry with me. I don't think I have any support from them. Their reactions also make me feel guilty for possibly being mentally ill.
sam18386 malwina71458
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hi malwina, if you are trying to fight it's the 1sr step you can take in healing you. i would not tell your boyfriend any more. i would not tell your friend any more, if they really cared they would be there for you regardless, they aren't doing this. tell someone, a professional counsellor is best, i wish you luck! keep fighting and we'll done for doing so
Ally22 malwina71458
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Hello Malwina71458,
I read your post as if I wrote it myself. I know the feeling of constant dread throughout the day and exhaustion even with adequate hours of sleep. I feel anxiety just writing this because I don't want to seem intrusive. I know many say this, but I hope you don't feel alone because I am absolutely going through the same. I suffer from Severe anxiety and interacting with others has always been a struggle.
I wish I had some answers to help you navigate out of this headspace. But whatever you do, don't give up! Keep fighting even when all feels hopeless. Don't ever think you are burden to others. We all face difficulties, but it doesn't make your difficulties any less valid. Stay strong and all the best!
~Ally~