im tired
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i really dont know what to say, but i feel like if i dont say anything I'll just give up on everything
i am sooo tired of crying, of worrying that no one cares about me, of wanting to be someone im not, of hoping that people will notice me yet i feel so silly for feeling that way, people are going through so much more than me in this world and yet here i am crying because no one cares about me
i want to stop, i want the voice that keeps telling me no one cares to go away, i want to be happy, i want to be confident, to feel that im pretty , to feel that people love me, to feel wanted, to feel cherished
i want it all to stop, i just want to feel normal, whatever normal is, but i know its not this
I cant keep saying im fine but on the inside i feel as though im drowning in my own tears, in my own sadness
too be honest, the only reason that i keep going is because i hope one day to make heaven and to finally have peace
i dont know what to do or who to talk to, i just want to stop crying
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patricia44773 justagirl72279
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Have you got family, have you confided in anyone? Tell us more and we will try to help. You should not be going through this on your own, and there is no need for you to do so, there is so much help out there, you just need to look for it.
Let us know more please.
Patxxx
justagirl72279 patricia44773
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its just been really tough for me, everytime I feel like im okay, things just feel like they're crumbling all over again.
im in university but i didnt manage to get student accomodation, i honestly feel all alone because my house mates dont come out of their room and they rarely talk to me, i always walk to and from uni by myself and it really makes me feel alone
even with the people on my course, i dont know why i cant say anything to them, i always feel afraid to talk to people, and no matter what people say to me i find it hard
thank you for responding, i just needed somewhere to put all my thoughts done, it just felt too much for me at the time
lattifa7777 justagirl72279
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I know how you feel, like you will never feel better, like their is no end. But there will be, for all of us who are suffering. How long have you been like this? And have you ever gone to the Drs?
justagirl72279 lattifa7777
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you dont know how comforting your words have been to me
lattifa7777 justagirl72279
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Xxx big hugs
RHGB justagirl72279
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She has been so helpful and understanding, and has not tried to do anything silly like trying to get in my head or ask if I suffered abuse as a child. If you get a good one,they can really help.
Veronica111 justagirl72279
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justagirl72279 Veronica111
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lattifa7777 justagirl72279
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Its depression an illness that make you feel very low, and can happen to anyone. Xxx
Veronica111 justagirl72279
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Zenna justagirl72279
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audrey96558 justagirl72279
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Are you happy doing what you're doing?
Is there Anything else you'd like to do?
Good luck my darling xxx
justagirl72279 audrey96558
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sometimes i dont really think it is, but i cant really give up when ive only really just begun, my parents have invested too much into my education for me to just give up and disappoint them
i really dont know if im happy, one day i feel happy, the next i feel sad, i dont know really whats wrong with me, i just want to be like everyone else, having loads of friends, participating in different things in uni but i feel like im just going through the motions
thanks for your well wishes i forgot to say in the beginning of my sighlty long message
patricia44773 justagirl72279
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Sending hugs.
Patxxx
justagirl72279 patricia44773
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im doing better today, i think that it all just a little bit too much for me yesterday, i might talk to my parents about everything but im not sure
thank you for checking up on me, i was really having a hard time yesterday
patricia44773 justagirl72279
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I am glad you are doing a little better, you are very brave.
Pat xxx
Digsby justagirl72279
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I must admit that my first term at university was pretty hellish and I found it hard to fit in. I'm assuming things weren't quite this dire before you started your course - are you sure you are enjoying it? Is it the right course? University is not just a time for hard slog. There are loads of clubs and societies that you could investigate (probably full of other young people trying to find their feet during their first adventure away from home). Try not to compare yourself too much with other people (although of course it is human nature to do so) because it's causing you such distress). Yes, there are people worse off and better off than you. That makes no difference to how you should feel. But don't put pressure on yourself to feel a certain way. The harder you try to overthink things, the worse it can become. Anything you can do to relax is good (especially the self-soothing techniques Zenna shared - these can be really effective when you find what workd for you). The university has a duty of care and should offer some sort of medical/counselling services - can you investigate those? Hang in there! My first term was a write-off but I did eventually settle in and find friends (and my future wife). Once you have found a connection with some other people, you might get the opportunity to move house. You are not overeaacting though - this is a big step in your life. Just go with the flow and make the most of it. I have seen posts on here from other uni students so you are not alone in how you feel. We really hope that you feel more settled very soon. Don't be afraid to seek the help that you need.
Hugs, Digsby x
justagirl72279 Digsby
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Digsby justagirl72279
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Can you connect with people another way when you feel isolated or lonely? Facebook perhaps, or texting friends & family members just to say "hi" or ask how their day is going. Music is a great companion and headphones/earphones a way of blocking out the rest of the world when you want to. Have you got the time or inclination to join any clubs or societies - this would bring you into contact with like-minded people.
Well done again for keeping so positive. Don't let the bad days get to you; just believe from past experience that things can and will get better.
Please keep in touch as we care how things go for you :-)
Digsby x