im waiting on my herpes test result and im so scared

so i ive had three sexual partners in the last month(ik insane right) but 2 of them ive been having relations with for about a year now but never had anything right. so the third i just met last month. a week ago the one texted me and told me i gave him herpes. he wont tell me if he diagnosed or just seen something on his area. and i cant tell if ive had symptoms or not bc i cut myself down there when shaving and thats what i thought the burning when peeing came from and also i thought the third one ripped me down there bc he was rough the night before. the cut did go away and the pain for the so called rip went away in a couple of days but the ulcer was still there. after the text i went to the er to get checked and they told me they couldnt tell if it was herpes or not. they still gave me medicine for it that ive been taking faithfully since then. i cant tell if i actually had symptoms or not bc there are so many logical reasons for some of them like the pain when urinating and i had pain in my hip like ive pulled a muscle but i was also being bended in ways i dont really bend lol. like im not flexible at all. that also went away in a few days. the cramps i thought were do to pms since my period was starting soon. but when i told the third guy that i might have herpes he immediately started lying which didnt help at all. i got tested a few days ago and just waiting on my results now. but when i got tested the ulcer that was on my vag was almost completly gone but there was a new one on my butt that the doctor said kinda looks like herpes but i had just scratched (very hard to the point a sore came) right there the night before. but that started to heal later that night. i was on google and it said sores usually start to heal 3days after and that first outbreaks take a really long time to heal so idk. idk im just scared. if i do have it that mean i'll have to tell the other one who doesnt know yet and im just not ready for that conversation mentally or emotionally. can anybody help me like do it sound like i have it or am i overreacting? (also sorry for the long post)

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