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I was really in a bad mood today...stuff happened last night and this a.m. that really had me on EDGE. From 9:30 am...I wanted a beer. So...I took off in my car...went to a breakfast resturaunt my sister works at..it was completely CRAZY busy there...had to leave...she told me I would be waiting a long time..I wanted to tell her I wanted to drink...but I didn't get to stay there.....So...I started thinking scr*w that drug testing I signed up for..I didn't care...BUT I drove by the liquor store. Found a place to eat. As soon as I ate...the DESIRE was gone.
BUT...it was a long ride to the next place to eat....and during that time...Impulse was going mad in my brain. First I was going to drink, then I was going to get a tattoo, then I was going to call my sister and see if the kids could go to a movie with me, then I was going to go to an AA meeting just to be around people, then I was going to go to a movie by myself, then I was going to go to the casino...LOL....it really wasn't funny at the time.
Its proof of how much our brains get changed from long term use of alcohol. I needed some type of fix...and my brain would NOT stop.
But, after I had the food....I was back to my half normal self....I ended up going to the convience store...to get some medicine for sleep and coming home...reading my book...Whew! I ended up having a good cry...too....
What I'm trying to say is if you are trying to abstain from alcohol...food is SUPER important to change the brain...and it works quickly. I felt myself changing within 5 bites. And the constant reminder of HALT...
If your in a tizzy like I was...HALT (stop) and think
This is not corny...its really true and has been very important to my sobriety in the past to pay attention to these things and take care of each one as it arises...It was true today as well. Hungry is easy to take care of...Angry, Lonely and Tired....a litte more difficut.
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