In a state of panic and great anxiety

Hi Wil, You sound to be about my age. I spent a chunk of my forties waiting for results after conizations. It really sucks.

I used to spend hours a day meditating. Now I find knitting works better. Meditating is simply being aware of your mind while hoping to quiet it. In your case concentration on something external might be better. And always get up if you don't fall back to sleep in short order. The anxiety of worrying about not getting enough sleep is a guarantee of insomnia.

I was really dreading my last gynae appointment because I was sure I was having a biopsy. I was mistaken. Afterward I realized just how edgy I'd been for weeks (and bitchy with my husband). At least you're aware and looking for a solution.

As they say, if there'e nothing you can do about something, then there's no point in worrying. If there's something that can be done, then there's no point in worrying.

Easy enough for me to parrot it, but I do hope you can find something to concentrate on, maybe just a really engrossing TV series that has about nine seasons.

I agree with Morrell. I am an anxious person too. I feared a recent colonoscopy but it was okay. Some early changes but I have Crohns. I can get anxious having my BP done and now I try to think of my funny grand babies. The tv works for me too. It has to be something you really like and can become absorbed in. If you are crafty like knitting etc that could help as well. You can vent on here too and we will listen and care. 

Where are you Wil816?

Have you considered perhaps getting some anti-anxiety medicine? My daughter started using some recently and it is making a big difference! I'm not really pro- medicine, but it can be helpful.  

Have you considered perhaps getting some anti-anxiety medicine? My daughter started using some recently and it is making a big difference! I'm not really pro- medicine, but it can be helpful.  

Hello Wil, Morrell is so right about the point of worrying about things. Worry makes the days so dark and the night so long. What hobbies do you have? Try and really concentrate on those pastimes. Try and be with happy friends - AND JOIN In with them - don't just sit and observe and be uptight. Perhaps do that special thing you always wanted to -   plan some fun - keep your brain occupied - crosswords puzzles number games mental arithmetic. Sometimes helping another person get over some trauma can reduce the anxiety in your burden. My son suggested when I was going thro a bad time that I should concentrate on all the positive things in my life and before going to sleep  what positive things I had achieved THAT day. Be it the ironing - tidying the bedroom getting a crossword clue right  getting some one to smile at me cos I had smiled at them first. Don't feed the worry by examining it, when the bubble of worry rises pop it if you can by diverting your thoughts - with music - happy or soothing - or if you are fit enough go to the gym a walk swim  or a run. Try and get your endorphins stirring to make you feel good. Smiling releases  these nice hormones as does laughter and exercise. Think of something that may make a loved one laugh - or at least smile, and if possible get a hug for a close one. Keep away from the doom and gloomy people in your life

New hair do /pedicure /manicure /a bit of spoiling of yourself is NEVER time wasted, and most women spoil others and not that often, themselves

Don't keep your fear to yourself, let your near and dear into your anxiety so that if you ARE prickly they understand the reason - but dont let them dwell on the issue and ask them to help you get and stay upbeat.

Good luck Sue DM

 

Thank you very much it was wonderful to walk in from work and find your wonderful speedy responses. I realize I don't have to stay in my head and live in fear. I can start crocheting again even if I'm a beginner, I can take long walks, I can start doing my yoga again and I could see  a good movie or read a book.  I can garden or cook a special meal. While I am not opposed to an antianxiety medication at this time I would like to try different options. Although today I did see my GP  and she prescribed a very very mild antianxiety medication just in case but for now I'm doing melatonin,  passionflower  and valerian tincture. I realize once I go down that deep end of worry and fear it's difficult to come back to center. I can't tell you how much I appreciate all the wonderful advice you guys gave me I will surely use it all.  My warmest appreciation. 

PS IF you ARE in a dark place in the middle of the night - get up and write a letter to yourself writing out all your fears anxieties and anger, Then in the morning  burn that letter! while remembering what is was you wrote, and thinking that is the end of THAT problem!. The actual writing is cathartic and can put irrational fears into perspective - the burning is symbolic- may be nonsense - but it may work - but at least the negative stuff isnt around any more to ponder over at a later date Go back to bed and listen to a light hearted talking book or radio programme

Better than hitting the bottle tempting tho that might be

SueDM

As everyone else says, try not to focus on negative thoughts but distract yourself doing something you enjoy. Before I got LS I had an ear infection which resulted in Tinnitus which nearly drove me mad. TV was no use as I'd be listening to distinguish between humming from the TV set and what was in my ears. In the end I signed up for an on-line degree and now I'm doing a Masters - Its impossible to study properly and worry! I still have the Tinnitus but I don't let it bother me now, I have coping strategies, most of them work with the LS too. If I can't sleep at night I get up and study, I'll still be tired in the morning but less depressed.  When I had to give up riding my horse with the LS we got a collie pup and I walk him every day, getting out in the open air is a must.  I also volunteer once a week with a Carriage -Driving for the Disabled group - when I see the young adult stroke or paralysis victims and how brave they are I know I have little to worry about, its a great antidote for my self-pity!

Just know Wil816 that people all around the world are thinking of you and that someone is feeling,just like you and gain strength from that. We are in this together. It will not win...we will!