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Hi All, I am a recovering alcoholic (and comfortable about calling myself an absolute addict) so I should know better. I've not had a drink since 1 August 2005 and have not smoked a cigarette since 1 February 2010 - and I'm proud of this - because I was enthusiastic about both of those hobbies. I hated them at the end of my journeys with both though.
A year ago I put my back out carrying my 1 and 3 year olds together on a new year walk. It was sore for a month and I was told to take Nurofen Plus (pain and anti inflam). I knew it was dicey and I could get hooked but it was doctors orders. I could control it...right?
I begun to like the cozy warm easy feeling that taking 6 pills a day would give me. Back recovered and soon was taking 10 - then 12. Now its a year later - and I generally take 18 pills a day. I always think Ill quit next week and its been a year. I've suffered with low grade depressive episodes and these pills gave me a lift - and supported me.
I had to stockpile going away for 12 days at Christmas - do the rounds of 8 local pharmacies buying 8 x 32 pill packs so I was covered etc. It's an awful secret and ive had enough of it. I also feel whacked out in the mornings and really low about myself.
I feel like a real idiot because I should know better. But a leopard cant change its spots can it.
I am really writing as a confession - then it's not all in my own head - then perhaps I can stop taking them. I remember taking them before about 10 years ago - for a month - and I stopped with no serious symptoms....but this time I'm terrified.
It could be worse - I have heard of people taking much more than 18 a day. I want to stop when I get back from a holiday I am taking in a few weeks. Should I taper? Should I go cold turkey? Is there an actual group I can join for support? I think if I'm honest with others - then I will get support and I will overcome the shame and I will succeed.
I have been struggling to cope as a father to two (beautiful wonderful children) under 4, a business, employees, sick parents - and these pills have come to represent some respite from all that stress. I know that stopping will give me a huge boost though. I cant wait to be free and feel better and wake up faster and secret free.
If anyone can help or advise me - or tell me of a support group - should I go to my GP?
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