Inability to fall asleep , don't know what to do. Please help read my story

Hey guys any help will be appreciated. I will start from the beginning to give an overview. Excuse my grammer i have gotten any sleep since April. Also I am very sorry for the long story just want to give everyone a better understanding. Thank you for your patience.

So back in 2011 I was self employed at the age of 19, i was doing really good for my age. I was in a sometimes stressful environment seeing as I ran my company myself. I started getting weird pains. in My stomach, muscle spasms and all kind of things I thought something was wrong with me. I went to doctors did tests and different scans they all found nothing. But I was convinced it was something because pain could t just come out of no where. I ended up having to close my business because it got so bad I was always worrying bout it and thought I was going to die. I did research online and found out there was a condition where people think k they have a disease but don't. I later found out about cbd which is used to aniexty. I drove to Denver got it and instantly my aniexty was gone. Good right ? . I completely forgot about all those things I was worried about and moved on wit life.

2015 I decided to go back to school and get my associate it 1year so I was taking g 5 classes a semester but I noticed in Feb of 2015 one night literally felt like someone dimmed the light it my brain after that I noticed I could not sleep. Months went by I was using melatonin for sleep it was helping but I would feel groggy and hung over. I keep uping my dose to bout 10mg it stopped working my August mind you I am still taking 5 classes each semester.

In August I got a job in the IT field while I was still in school sleep was still crappy I didnt think nothing of it because I know many people who work full time w school and still make it so I thought if they can do it so can I. My job required alot of walking and I noticed my leg was aching from Fatigue but once again I said whatever take it like a champ. Now I think the fatigue was nothing if I was getting good restorative sleep but the fact was I wasn't getting this with all the work and school I was doing but at the time I wasnt thinking about that I was too focused on what I need to do.

((((I would take Xanax sometimes when I was stressed out and into 2016 i would take .25 or .5 or 1mg and it would knock me out but never consecutively and not more than 30 pills stressed out in months))

I was so tired and exhausted that sometime around December of 2015 I said forget all this gave up on school and work and for a whole week I sleep without pills or anything. I noticed that 1week of sleep was enough to rejuvenate my legs I felt no pain and was overall in a good state. After that 1 week I had to get back to work as I graduated Dec of 15.

I graduated and also got a better job while I had my other one work both for a month and dropped one by Jan of 2016. Kept working 45 hour weeks and found it difficult to sleep as I was stressed out at work and was studying for a certification exam. I occasionally took Xanax just to knock my out when I had difficulty sleeping but noticed I didnt feel restored when I woke up. I then went to a doc in Feb of 2016 I was giving amtrililin or something like that it made me feel terrible nausea and headache then I was giving trazodone it helped me sleep but had same side effects. I didn't take both at the same time fyi but discontinued them.

Fast forward to April I endured the fatigue in My legs and lack of sleep only because I had bills/responsibilities and had a goal to reach. I talked to co workers and they said might be your mattress causing all this and I went ahead and bought a new one around April 24 and surprisingly I slept for 3 days but once gain I think stress at work and studying ending that. So after those 3 days I went right back to not being about to sleep due to racing mind.

After April my sleep was literally non existent by the of may I think my body had taken all it would because around June 3rd amd 4th it became impossible for me to.procoess thought and do my job duties. I was a lead tech for a big company and I had a lot of responsibilities. O. The 3rd a mistake I did was take yellow Xanax for sleep and I had less than 5-6 to wake up for work. When I got up I felt foggy brain. And just terrible. By the time i got to work my legs were dead I think my leg fatigue had reached its limit because I could barely walk. I ended up leaving early and that night when I got home just the thought of me having to go to work give me a mini panic attack which I never had before. ( Never had a panic attack) . Someone had to calm me down, I went to work next day but I could only stay for 2 hours I ended up quitting that day my mind and body couldnt take it.

I felt good quitting my goal was to get as much sleep as possible to heal my body and mind ( sounds easy right ). The whole month of June I did not get a lick of sleep. After I dropped every stressor In my life i still could t sleep I was so confused. When you lay In Bed tossing and turning due to lack of sleep you start goggling and trying to find disgnosis a d treatments. As you guessed my aniexty and fatigue shot through the roof. I have become unable to walk, I mean I can walk my legs are just extremely fatigued and in pain.

In July I had 2more panic attacks biggest one was while driving I thought it was a heart attack. I decided to make another trip to Denver and see if cbd would help. I tried cbd CBN medicinal weed for insomnia none worked like they did before. Well when I smoke I feel like I am about to sleep but when I get that falling feeling my heart starts beating fast as hell and it wakes me back up.fast forward to August I have this crawling feeling in my chest (heart) and arm I am scared due to lack of sleep I might get heart failure. I would be happy if I can Just get even 30 mins or an 1hr.

Guys I don't know what else to do I have a sleep study on the 20th.

The problem is when I lay down to sleep my brain doesn't turn off aka my mind hasnt rested in months.

I get night sweats

Exhausted all times of the day

Extremely fatigued

Little depressed

Aniexty

I know all these things will go away when I sleep but I do t know how to get there.

Here are the things I have tried

Melatonin

GABA

Magnesium liquid

OTC sleep aids

Benadryl

Advil pm

Marijuana

aroma therapy

Massage

Acupuncture

Vitamin b complex

Cbd

Cbn

I don't believe I have any illness because I sleep those times and everything went away I just need to get my sleep back.

Thanks in advance.

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